2006.. love.hate.emo.insane.

bra n towelcam whorinstuff i dun likeash u make me sick*

2006-12-18T02:56:00.000+08:00

k i juz fuckin always dun get
wad i wan. its alwys like tt
i noe. im childish
wel i wanna b childish
let me b ok.
my blog aniwae.. nt happi
thn juz dun read. GET LOST
fer all i care.
i hate it
the things i go thru
the fuckin truths bhynd evytin
e fact tt i let myself into all this shit
it juz it juz MAKES ME WANNA SCREAM.
k .. end of anger . duwanna tink of it animore
thinkin of elmo. n fadhie. irin n shashir.
yeah feel better
todae. me.. irin shah n thahirah
did sum whacky stuf..
was rainin hard [m stayin at queenstown.. thahirahs plc]
4 of us juz decided to go dwn get wet
had friggin lotsa fun
gettin wet in e rain..
dancin singin.. jumpin all arnd
to feel e icy cold water
alll over ur body..DAMN IT WAS GUUD!
soaked.. drenched.. frm top to bottom.
we were havin e tym of our lives.
didnt care hu was goin by..
aniwaes e plave very ulu..
haha thn cum home. 4 gals.
walkin arnd in bras n towels.
me n irin cam whorin.
*after rain cam whorin*
soo funni.
pornstars in e makin. whahaha
thn all bathed changed went to
tiong bahru fer dinner
n headed off to raffles.
n gues wd. my fkin slippers.. had to break again
so me .. holdin onto irins arm.. holdin an umbrella..
was walkin towards esplanade.. in e rain..
WIF NO SHOES ON BAYBEH!!.
juz like tt.. i didnt care abt aniting la
was headin towards marina to buy slippers aniwae
bt me n irin.. heheh singin songs.. in e rain..
walkin slowli.. was nice.
two of us singin e same songs
bt fer totali diff reasons.
finali. frm esplanade to marina...
marina square. gt slippers at elle active.. hehe
n tts whn IRIN started cryin!
gosh this gal scared e fk outtaf me.
this is wd happens whn u get deep into relationships.
u put in ur evrytin juz to find out tt its not worth it..
or mebe u dun put in aniting.. n later regret n lose e opportunity.
wel. all relationships haf their WDEVERS.
so they fought n she cried n cried.
n thn he msged apologisin.
he wans e relationship goin..[nice..]
whn she was cryin .. i tol her
if all u do n he does is not bringin e relationship aniwhr
thn myt as well let itgo
its not as if thr no more guys aniwhr animore.
n oops. tt was a bad thing to say.
yeah . i noe. bt hell.. I M RYT ARENT I?
bt the thing.. is.. wel.. sashir wans e relationship
he loves her. n hes apologisin. fer wds happened
nt evry fker out thr does tt..
ok fine...i meant not evry GUY does tt.. does he?
its wd u call EGO? or wel. playin arnd[naabae playboi]
so wel.. we were thn at marina beach til we caught e last bus home
in e bus i was like teli nirin
shes lucki to haf sashir. she shudnt let aniting affect her too much
life wil b guud fer her n him
like...she can say.. she loves him n he loves her too.
well.. tts whr i sit n think of e guys ive met i my life
nt one has e MATURITY of sashir's..
even tho sashirs much younger thn ani of them
rather thn praisin sashir.. [bt kudos to him] im degradin e othr fkers.
all of them had e ultimae male ego cheebai thingie,
n wel they were very very very gud at
makin use of things whn its at their advantage,
im not namin ani one of them.. dun feel a need to.
if they read my blog. they noe hu they are
n even thn i dun gif a fk
whn confronted.. abt their mistakes.
they juz take off... let go... all of em
they dun even haf e decency to say SORRYn explain
like wd shashir did.
see wd i mean. i dunoe
ijzu feel like a piece of shit now
bt i had lotsa fun fer e past 2 daes
spent lotsa tym wif my lovables.
hmmmmm
havin holz. duwanna stray too far
frm wd ive always bn..
MYSELF
muackz
JuLiE

2 things. one rocked. another wil rock soon. rock me off sum buildin i tink.

2006-12-09T21:11:00.000+08:00

heya.
two things.
jack & e beansprout
was AWESOME!!!
my first time watchin a
W!LD RICE PRODUCTION
it was fantabulous!!
i soo juz can imagine myself actin like tt
infrnt of 600 over audience.
it was simply fantastic.
thanks to mic studio. [thnk gdness i joined this cca]
i reali wanna improve myself
in actin. its reali. an inspiration almos.
watchin all those actors.. sebastian. ivan heng.
wow. BIG NAMES noe. hmmm
ther lotsa other musicals/panto wdever u cal it cumin up.
frm TOY FACTORY as well..
n hosen leong's Multiple Personality Disorder!
pantomimes rock la. simple as tt.
hehehe. hmmm. simply fantastic.
this feelin insyd. its juz nicey wicey wice~ hehe
if daddy can pay. i sure wanna catch everyting! ;)
[tt sounds like *oh-so-typical-blonde-bimbo* URGH]
hmmm. lotsa exposure for me. hehe :P:P
yeah. tts one. n now. 2.
toked to habibi. afta quite sum tym.
and he being my bro. gave sum sound advice
[haha i oso gif him alot of advice noe:P]
said i shd forget evyting n juz STUDY HARD
helloe bt i DO STUDY HARD OK.
ive bn doin very well in sch
all my modules A / B except acf la.haish.
wadever la k? i do study hard ok
i'l juz do wd my heart tells me to ok
i'l do wd i feel is ryt.
wd i NOE is ryt.
so ryt now. it means ive to
concentrate on wads impt.
die my way thru e last week of sch!
n thn my hozl wil cum. n wdever has to
happen. juz let it happen. i'l see wd i can do
whn it happens. like wd haf i got to lose ryt??
actuali. i always lose sth. bt this tym, i wun let it affect me.
simple? can? manageable?? SURE! its julie we're tokin to here~!
muackz
JuLiE

ash is in e head

2006-12-06T23:31:00.000+08:00

im selfish
i wan him to tok to ME
i wan him to flirt wif ME
i wan him to go crazy over ME
i wan his tots to revolve arnd ME.
so whn all i ever wan him to do
has e werd ME in it.
thn e selfish bitch in me has juz jumped out.
n dun ask me y
im starin at his pics
im luvin his eyes
i sooo juz wanna hear his voice
kinda crazy or not [meanin his voice]
moodless or not. [his mood]
heart is goin all jumpity jumpity
at cls. whn im engrossed in werk.
out of nowhr he appears in mind
n i immediateli go
"julie.. i said dunt. DUNT think of him.
uve gt werk to do" i chid myself inwardly
bt stil end up day dreamin aniwae.
e lyrics frm "a girl like me - rihanna"
runs thru my head every nw n thn
"possibility.. got me tripping.
thinkin of wd cud be.. btw u n me"
had this feelin b4. bn thr. felt it all.
went thru all e hurt as well
so thn y m i walkin dwn e same drain again?
n wds more im goin dwn e same drain wid sum kindaf
wierd inward determination. ?? y? *headpain*
its like. ok lets daydream. yeah i noe it wun happen
bt hey daydreamin is fun. so yeah lets haf fun
n thn later juz let go of evyting like nths happened b4
wel tts soo totali not julie. not her style. thn y. ask GOD.
he said sth. i reacted like it was nth.
has my heart turned into steel??
or m i doin it all in purpose.
diggin my own grave bt
thinkin tt i wun die aniway.
not any tym soon tt is.
so its all a funni game
with a funni guy
so lets haf fun
n whrever it ends
let it be n tata buhbye.
sounds sick to me
no muackz tonyt
JuLiE

2 guys & a gal

2006-12-06T21:43:00.000+08:00

ive gt 3 ppl in my mind
2 guys and a gal.
ash..fred..naziee.
ash said he had exam todae..
wonder how it went..
fred wil b cumin soon
wonder wds gona happen
nazie n i went shoppin together
nvr had so much fun in a long tym
we both got tops frm this fashion
*weeeeeeee*
we met at bishan.
n her new ipod. is SOOO FCUKIN COOL!
tiniest ipod ive ever seen. bt. wel. shiok la!
had fn.. makan.. thn tryin out ani new top which
caught our eye. haha. a fun girls day out.
heheeh shes goin fer her holz. this fri.
while me... ive got e JACK & THE BEANSPROUT
musical to attend on fridae!! *weeeeeeeee*
at national library audi. n gues wd!
my papa is in charge of all e lighting thingies!!
hahaah im soooo oh soooo proud! hehehehe
wel.. me gona wear e top i bought on fri..
seems suitable enuff.. all black on fri nyt.
heheheh. sleeek. wel wel wel..
enuff of all tht. i need to go to SCH
juz a week more.. n i'l b freeeeeee
cant wait. gt movies to catch wif creammu..
outing to go wif minzi nazie baizura
wudnt mind meetin ash as well. [wd m i tokin?!?!?]
haha
muackz
JuLiE

poem. wekend highlights. mistake?? or juz fer fun?

2006-12-04T17:16:00.000+08:00

took this poem from sumones blog
thought it was awesome.
a poem, written by an African kid :

When I born, I Black.
When I grow up, I Black.
When I go in Sun, I Black.
When I scared, I Black.
When I sick, I Black.
And when I die, I still black.

And you White fella,
When you born, you Pink.
When you grow up, you White.
When you go in Sun, you Red.
When you cold, you Blue.
When you scared, you Yellow.
When you sick, you Green.
And when you die, you Gray.
And you call me coloured.

wow! wow! wow! this is wd u call
dwnryt slammin ryt on e face,
tamilan wil say "ponna jack la!"
hahaha..
juz toked to ash
hes sooooo funni
he juz made me laff n laff n lafffffff
n so did minzi..
shes another crazee one!!
poor thing my darlin fell dwn..
n her bro. originali "thosai maavu"
now officiali known as Blur Sotong!!
juz stood thr instead of carryin her up.
ketta shocked. hahahahaah
minzi n her funni ways of describin..
"he was starin at me as if i juz
graduatated frm MDIS wif a diploma"
whahahahhahah
hmmmm.
over e weekend i went shoppin wif minzi
bought myself shoes. converse!! hahakz.
n yeah went to watch DHOOM2
wif creammu!! MR. A. U ROCK MAN!!
hehhehehe n yeah gt a reply at last!!!!!
*weeeeeeeee* hahaha
hmmm i dunnoe wd to say abt wad ive done
tts all i can say.
minzi if ive upset u
i dun wanna say sorry
cos ive upset myself as well
*hugz*
muackz
JuLiE

boohoo

2006-11-30T22:21:00.000+08:00

aiyo kadevulae!!!
so mani things
spinnin
so mani twists n turns
i suddenli
dunnoe how long im gona last
thinkin too much
worryin too much
all much much
we aim for sth to happen
it all starts well
in btw cums e twistin n turnin
n holla.. b4 we noe it..
e endin is totali unexpected!
bt oh wel.
wds life without complications eh?
u juz gotta accept it n move on!
haish.

nice and tormenting part 3

2006-11-23T08:53:00.000+08:00

hmmmm
past few daes bn kinda eventful.
haha watched FLUSHED AWAY
wif fadhie!! damn funni..
e dae went great
cos i met up wif her..
we jln jln b4 e movie
at wdlnds.
saw tis playgrnd..
wif swings
heheheh
we ran for em.
thn swingin away..
relivin our childhood daes.
hehe it was guud
a dae out wif fadhie. juz her n me
n our craziness...
movie was funni..
n shes already "booked" me
fer Happy feet and Open Season
hehhehehe
*e booty is in e booty*
n abt fadhie ..
she was like
"dae. my best fren hasnt met my bf da!"
hehe wel fadhie. "guud things take time to happen"
tt phrase sooo goes fer me as well.
not na-ah. whn julz is impatient. shes VERY IMPATIENT!
boohooo hoo hooo hooooooooooooooooo
i saw sumone at e mrt station..
n i sent another email.
its bn a week n a dae since he left
me dunoe wd to say
bt missing sumone suddenli sucks big tym
its again wd i call
"nice yet tormentin"
which also means not nice la
or wdever la.
tml im goin fer my leadership camp
at batam n im not even excited
like u noe e kinda feelin u get ..
e kind I usuali get whn im goin out of spore fer trips n so on
its juz NOT THR!!! im frequentli moody [not pms]
i feel like a piece of chocolate cake which has bn bitten all over
n thrs onni a lil bit left of me stil juz waitin to b bitten again..
err... k i dunoe how relevant tt expression is
bt wtf man! i dun care?!?!?!?!
n HEY! MY NEW NEPHEW HAS BEEN BORN ALREADY
bdae - 21/11/06 time 9 pm
hes juz soooo damn e cute lor!!!!!
yest i carried him.. soo soft to touch
n his eyes... sooo cute!!
hahaks *weeeeeeeee* me loves babies*
i hope they wil name him Muhammad Fawwaz Ihsan
it sounds soooooooooo... er... strong. n wel. UNIQUE
wel it means a successful person hu has e highest level of Iman.
guud wd??? heheheh hope e uztads all agreee..
hmm.. so well.. hes e newest member in my already huge family..
[my papa's gt 9 siblings.so means i gt a whole lottsa cuzzins..
n e elder ones oready married n hehe ive gt like
includin e newest, ive gt 4 NEPHEWS] hehehheh
hmm babies. nice.. cute..
well now im off to sch
*moodless to e max*
muackz
JuLiE

nice yet tormentin part 2

2006-11-17T14:02:00.000+08:00

fridae todae...
at sch now
listenin to e song
"nadpu illai kadithem"
its totali addictive..
it made me cry..
email has been sent.
didnt noe abt wd to say
bt wel. juz did la.
see whthr i'l get a reply
hmmm
tol zura n shila abt
mickey n his gf
muz haf seen zuras face
wahhaha
she damn cute la..
heheheheh
evryting oso "best nya!!"
ya la best la.. bt stil.
things are very disturbin..
julies nt concentratin
in wds impt ready
tts a big booboo
my exams, presentations, proj
are all due very soon
i gotta catch up ready...
bt thrs this pull in my heart
like. like i dunoe.
like juz wanna sit dwn
n think my life away
tho its not a nice feelin insyd
i stil wanna juz do it.
like u noe.. wds tt werd..
er.. likin to inflict pain onto oneself
masochistic. yeah. read tt werd
frm this passage durin o lvl daes.
bt now i go find in wikipedia,,
it says..sth to do wif sexual fantasies!!
wtf sia!!! nonono
i meant suffering. aiya wdever not la.
haish.. its not like i luv inflictin pain
onto myself [def not via sexual fantisies! EEEEW]
its juz i wanna sit n think n think whole dae
n feel bad. [self sympathy??? mebe..]
bt haiya. later it wil b bac to square one
i'l b panickin over my thousand tons of werk,
as usual. n thn at e bac of my mind
thr'll stil b this tot.
this sad tot. which i usuali try my best
to push outta my head..
wif no luck.
at all.
wel.
yeah.
k. dah
muackz
JuLiE

nice yet tormentingsporting afrique24

2006-11-15T12:38:00.000+08:00

he appeared on sundae.
n hes leevin tonyt
met him at khatib
chit chat til cityhall
met later at yio chu kang
thn e next dae.
n yest
n now todae
i dun feel as crazee
as i felt e nyt b4 last nyt
not as confused
feel quite ok.. reali.
hes leevin tonyt n cumin bac in january
tts 2 mths. wif sch.. tym wil fly.
n thn wd? tts wd i dunoe.
everythings soo new n happenin SOO FAST
[and of cos as usual. im thinkin too much]
i wonder whr its all gona end.
n as said b4. [this tym nth to do wif e previous entry]
im in a situation ive nvr bn in b4
n i nvr ever bleeved sth like tt wud happen.
n im not as happy as i was in e previous entry.
as in im not IM NOT keepin ani hopes.
let alone keepin them high.
here i am. whr i canot .. or more like
do not noe whther i shd trust anione.
whether i shd follow my instincts
whthr i shd juz see whr it all ends
besyds it all looks very VERY far fetched to me.
bt its al abt me isnt it. me n my decisions.
[n i was tol tt im too young to make decisions nw
n im under sumone elses care. bt thr cums a tym whn i'l b independent
n no one can stop me frm makin my decisions ;)]
n i duwanna let go.
i like e frenship its totali new.
totali intricate. delicate. new.
sum are excited for me
some think its way styyle!!
they think things can go wel
bt others .. they think im askin for trouble
they think im being taken advantage of
[or more like.. wil b taken advantage of]
bt all of em are concerned for me
n me? wd do I think? wel. this is wd i think.
LET TYM TEL! I DUWANNA THINK ANIMORE LA DAE
I'L BECUM 86 AT E AGE OF 17. WHITE HAIR WIL GROW ON MY HEAD
IF I THINK ANI MORE THN WD IM THINKIN ALREADY!!!!!!!!!!
*nice yet tormenting*
muackz
JuLiE

ashrayabib

2006-10-23T08:47:00.000+08:00

manjel veyil maalei ithe...
mella mella iruluthae...
palichidum vilakkugal
pagel pol kaattuthae!

im in a situation ive nvr
bn in b4.. im not sure of wd to do.
bt e person hus involved
loves e song mentioned above, ;)

calls me aunty. granmother..
n worse AKKA. aiyo aiyo.
heheh. bt oh wel. we shal see
whr al this is gona end..
choc baby.

didnt go sch todae
not bn wel lateli
headaches flyin bac again.
n wel e much awaited
las min raya eve shoppin
has cum, this evening
wif my darlz minz.

ive stil got to go to sch
ac dae skit rehearsal.
wel oni 2 hrs,
chop chop fin thn
meet minz. thrs so much
i wanna tok to her.
nt tt we dun tok evydae
bt oh wel. nths better
thn meetin up n tokin
over coffee or sth

raya wk is such a bz week fer me
bt its gt nth to do wif raya
tts e best part *boo*
25th- rehearsal fer global edn seminar
- rehearsal fer ac dae skit
26th- ac dae actuali event
-rehearsal fer GES
which means AL fer both daes.
n of cos 30th- the actual GES
AL on tt dae as well..

3 daes AL. n schs juz started
god save me la..
haish. nvm
all fer e gd of it all..

i feel guud bad sad confused
mixedup n wdeva fcuk
im thinkin too much
too fast...
not guud at all..

wd habib tol me
a few mths ago..
i repeated it to him yest.
n he rmbred. hehe
wel it wud b nice
if things happen fer me
the way they happened fer habib
;) reali nice hehe

so til thn. advanced raya wishes fer
all my deary muslim darlinz.
i hope all ur dreams n wishes cum true.
aaaammeeeennnn

lotsa loves
muackz
JuLiE

20th october 2006sth special fer my darlinz!candyshop rockz!

2006-10-20T06:52:00.000+08:00

*WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE*
IM sooo reali happi this morninz..
due to wd has happened in e earli wee hrs .. jz nw
sth i shal nt disclose.. bt wel. *GRINZ WIDELY*
sth i hoped tt wil happen.. has happenned.
quickyly enuff.. bt wel.. nths ever too earli.. ;)
hmm yest was a disaster unless u count in wds mentioned above.
damned tired.. was not fastin..
n had a terrible migrain. [is tt e ryt spellin?]
i tot i was slowly dyin.. migrain earli in e mornin..
cudnt get outaf bed fer sch..
n thn afta an hr of KDS. i walked towards mac.
alone. waitin fer e others to get done wif their tourism cls.
had a cup of hot milo whn my crampz start.
gosh.. GOD reali tests e guud ppl!!!
aiyo aiyo aiyo. afta EVM. e gals n i head to e library
whr zura darlin slps like a flower on e seat!
soo damn heavenli her face.. e rest of us haf no heart to
wake her up.. tho it was getin late fer biz com lesson..
wel whn she eventuali wakes up shes like "y u all nvr wake me up?"
whahhaha damn cute. poor thing la see..
auto shut dwn once in condusive environment!!! swt!!
at biz comm unfortunateli..
i ws shuttin dwn.. ryt under e pink ladys nose.
trust my headache n cramps to jump to a level 2 notches higher..
makin me feel as if hell fire is jz arnd e corner.
gosh. i was thnkin all e heavens in e werld
whn wahida smsed to say tt i didnt haf to meet her.
once lesson was over... al i ever wanted to do ws
to practicalli FLY BAC HOME TO MY BED!!!
which i didnt.. of cos. took e train wif shasha..
we chit chat til i gt dwn at khatib.
aaah.. loveli. i almos walk-jog home.
n all i noe is i sat on my bed.. n *weee*
i was in lala land.. hehehhe..
hmm wel afta excessive amt of
panadol extra tablets.
evrytings better now.. n wel..
NEW HAPPENINGS haf occured. n haf
heightened my spirits to a totali
*i stil cant believe this has actuali happened* level
bt oh wel...
im stil all smiles as always.
dear GOD plz dun get my "yest sicki yucki" thingies to cum bac
cos im in a very jolly guud mood
im goin fer a werkshop todae..
im goin to geylang serai fer las min shoppin wif minzi todae
i soo wanna enjoy myself.
LET ME PLZ! *AAAAAMMMMEEEEEN*
k now im off to go get ready fer sch..
lotsaloves
muackz
JuLiE

julz men & womenboo

2006-10-18T08:33:00.000+08:00

hmm.. schs started
new tymtable.. ish not exactli flatterin.. bt oh well..
life stil goes on i guess...
apart frm e gals .. im e onni one hus chosen Entrepreneurship as an elective
so hehe.. im not reali at my element.
bt well.. doin up a biz.. ish reali sth i wanna do.
so haha.. friends dunt alwys cum as a priority i guess
so which means..
i cum to sch evrydae at 8.. bt on wed n fri.. ENT is onni frm 8 - 9..
n i'l b free FREEE wif nth
else to do frm 9 to 11... or 9 - 12.. wth??
haish... nvm la..
shall figure sth out la..
mmm todae ish gona b a very bz dae...
afta ent ish over im to rush home.. clean up
menain.. vacuum/mop/wash my hse.
whahah.. ppl cumin over to buka!!
im SOOO excited noe..
like its bn soo long since ppl came to my plc..
like a gatherin sorta thingie
bn yrs infact..
so daddys uztad cumin. n frens.. n mehrus family.. ariffahs family..
n hopefulli nazminah..
shes nt bn wel.
haish.. hmmm..
indrani came over a few daes ago..
she jz appeared at arnd 8.. haha.. bt its bn fun lateli
havin her arnd at home once in a while..
like ive gt sum company.. a guud fren. to tok to..
abt completeli aniting under e sun.. lyk frm hus hot n not..
which gyus gona break which gals heart..
whahah.. its jzu girly wirly stuffies u do wif.. well GALS.
hehehe gossip?. hehe hell yeah i guess!
hehehheeh she she came.. n i was as usual..
bz cleanin up e afta break fast thingies
n she asked.. whther i was being paid! aiyoooo..
its my own hse la.. fer wd i get paid fer.. bt hey.. it sounds guud
julz officiali on currency crisis. so sum cold hard cash
wud do me ALOTTA GUUUD
hmm thn while she was showin shah sum nra dance vids on youtube..
i was browsin thru her lappy..
for songs to upload.. n i came across... "cant hold us down"
by christina aguilera..
i noe.. kinda old.. like whn i was in sec 2 i guess [2002]
bt it had bn my fav whn it first came out
like.. e lyrics do mean sum guud stuff...

"So what am I not supposed to have an opinion
Should I be quiet just because I'm a woman"

i mean.. yes we are in the 21st century..
women are finali being treated on par wif men..
bt they are sum low life dimwits hu stil think in e CONVENTIONAL way..
thn men are alwys better thn women in evry single way..
i mean.. its true..
tel an effin "oh-so-weathly", "oh-i canot-control-my-ego"
bizman tht thrs a new rival company.. whos CEO is MS so n so.. or MRS soso.
n he'l b like smirkin.. or sneerin to himself..
thinkin t he can def do better since.. shes just a WOMAN.
it does happen. i mean leave e talent of e woman asyd.
sum men jzu feel tht they own e werld n
woman are juz extra beings on e werld fer them to make use of.

" If you look back in history
It's a common double standard of society
The guy gets all the glory the more he can score
While the girl can do the same and yet you call her a whore
I don't understand why it's okay
The guy can get away with it & the girl gets named"

its correct wd?? whn u noe sum bloke..
hus got like 6 six gals .. playin arnd..
evryone wil go.. "
waah he damn e style ah.. 6 gals.."
bt if its gona be a gal hus playin arnd wif 6 guys..
u go "wallau.. wd a bitch la.. HoPPER.. knncbb.. whore"
wtf ryt? wtf man!!! its always bn like tt...

hehehe wel.. juz my thoughts.. now cls over!!
hehe bt gals being shunned by e society n
guys being glorified by their so called victory..
sth to ponder over eh???
muackz
JuLiE

julz is bac blogginrayasocial circle

2006-10-13T10:30:00.000+08:00

hello!! been quite a loong while since ive bn bloggin regularli.. hehehe.. thts me pic. taken at joo chiat.. wif minzi. hehe. hmmm lifes bn a bitch.. wel.. in a very guud way tt is. erm. yeah. ups n downs here n thr. stil haven gone to e "hign-on-emotions" level yet.. so haha. juz sailin along smoothly i gues.. gues im growin up eh. ive figured not to tink too much abt aniting.. juz go wif e flow n do e best i can in wdeva i wanna do.. hmmm. SCHS FINALI STARTING!! 3 more daes to goo.... *woohooooo* i seriousli cant wait. afta a whole mth of doin pretty much evryting othr thn aniting related to sch... i juz cant wait.
i miss e gals. i miss e pink lady. i miss isq.. i miss. gosh i miss alot la!
mic studio.. my seniors. hehe. e ite gobal edu seminar is cumin up.. thn thrs a werkshop.. n a skit as well. *weeeeeee* im finali gona b very bz.. my times gona b occupied. hehe 3 new modules as well. hmm i miss havin no tym fer aniting else bt sch.. haha.. very wierd fer julie to say such stuff.. bt yesh.. reali. of cos e holz was fun.. i mean reali. it has bn my best holz. ive been meetin minzi on e regular basis, n its nvr bn better.. n thrs ash. thrs creammu.. thrs akhber.. thrs habib.. its like.. this holz i was juz freee.. n in my element.. my frens..
ive bn soo into my social circle.. i gues i wanna go bac to my gd old bz wif sch daes.. its nvr too good to stay in one plc fer too long aniwae..
HARA RAYA ish on e way as wel... went raya shoppin last nyt.. heheh.. so far all my stuff are frm e FEROZ KHAN COLLECTIONS! hehehehe sound sooo.. soo style.. heheheh. raya shoppins done! hehe bt u noe.. reali.. e vibe.. e *ooooh.. its HARI RAYA* mood.. is juz not thr at all.. e buzz is not thr. e excitement. is nowhr. its like.. *oh wel.. another hari raya is here.. so hey cum.. let go visiting.* tt kinda thing. haish. i dunnoe whthr its juz me. or fer sum othrs too.. i mean reali. e probs at home are juz gettin worse. so like. it totali puts off all e happi thingis. so oh wel. we shal see. bt fer now. julz is all smiles.. schs startin ehehhehe... n ya. i haf to go sum up my cls treasure box. hehe as usual. im a last min do-er whn responsibilities cum. im tinkin of buyin a grey top.. sch uni. i onni haf maroon. hehe mebe. see how. wel wel wel.. im off now..
muackz
JuLiE

bubbles in the blurry october sky

2006-10-07T10:43:00.000+08:00

Its one in the morning
Im blowing bubbles into the hazy October sky
I watch as the bubbles sway in the cool breeze
gently.. some fast.. some slow..
My thoughts are running as well..
fast and slow in the blurred depths of my mind
A car goes by.. its light shining on my bubbles
some "pop" in an instant.. othrs continue to
move further away from me.
Children like to "catch" bubbles.. tiny fingers
reaching up to touch...
I prefer to watch them fly..
some come so close and "pop" at my face
others fly away and dissappear out of sight.
Bubbles in the blurry sky.

pissed wif curlzsoo into talebanweeeeeeee

2006-09-19T21:24:00.000+08:00

*weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee*
im flyin.. hehe julies in e flyin in e sky mood!
wel i tok to him whahahh weeeeeeeeeee
onni fer a while. bt im smilin lor!
bn smilin ever since! whahhahaha
frm ear to ear! hehehehhe
e conversation is like goin thru
my head again n again heheheh'
hmmmm tts e happy smiley part
cum to e reason y im pissed..
pissed off wif e lil lady wif curlz!
hu was supposed to call me..
whn i reminded her sooo many effin times.
i m sooo angry bt nvm. i shal think "taleban"
n smile.. bt stil. wth? a simple fonecall to
inform me abt watcha gona do. wil tt hurt?
here i ws waitin n waitin like a piece of dunno wd
seriousli pissed off ... PISSED OFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF!
haish nvm. happens la. bt no more movie wif u lady!
meetin minzii. hehe she wil haf e decency to CALL!
we shal catch movie hehe YAYNESS!
n thn meetin thahira at taka. hehehe
myt stay over. *weeeeeeeeee*
life ish gd.. if not fer e itsy bitsy nt gd things.
rmbr tokin to minzi. abt how our lifes wud b like
sister in laws. whahha we always cum up wif crap
bt its lots fun to imagine. its e onni tym we can
do wdevar we like n thrs no interruption
hehehe minziis cute. shes constantli tryin
n hopin tht i wil fall fer her bro. so tt she n i wil live
under e same roof. whahahaha wth. oh well.
no la. i mean. no. n wel.. nonono.. heheheh
*grins wideli at minzii if u are readin this*
rmbr the othr one. e K family.. tt wud b
soo much better di.. so much better :D
hehehe k thn im off. julz is on holz
bn goin out alot lateli.
ramadan ish cumin. shd b stayin home
readin e quran.. doin lotsa doas.
prayin fer happiness in all my loved ones'
lives. inclusive of akhber taleban creammu
jaffu sam minzi nazira fadhie prashant irin sashu
man faizy mm faizy amk ariffah aisha ansari
shah malik shaheed shanu mic studio ppl
zura shasha daya shila sangaran uma durga
hudsie indix habibi munzi amir n yeah e list goes on.
i love u all man! hehehe
those hu are not mentioned . i stil love u la
juz tt i haf to stop sumwhr i canot b goin on n on.
lotsa loves ppl
huggies
muackz
JuLiE

aynul nazminahjuliez one n onlii love u

2006-09-15T14:34:00.000+08:00

hey hey hey
bn long since i blogged
gd news EXAMS ARE OVER
HOLZ ARE HERE.
bd news. no money.
need a job badli. boohoo!
nvm. wel todae.. thrs onni one person
i haf in mind. n i plan to blog abt her.
this entry is all abt her. n me. juz her. n me.
yesh its aynul nazminah. my one n only.
hot pic eh?? wahahah shes ma sexy mama!
wel lets see.. she n i. we are wd u call
"complicated story" [atleast to us la]
me. i get along better wif guys thn gals.
it easier fer me to tok things out wif guys la.
wdeva othrs haf to say.
whaha tts how i m.
so it came to me as a surprise
to see hw minzi n i clicked instantli
minzi was one of e many ppl
hu were in e conference
rareli do i ever call gals hu give me their number.
so whn i did call her wel. we talked normalli.
i found myself likin her instantli.
which ws not me. thn we met.. watched tirupaachi
wif malik. which ws soo much of fun
we called each other almos evrydae tokin all sorta crap.
n wel. we both knew tt no one wil understan
us better thn e both of us.
we tok abt evrytin under e sun with no embarassment.
we noe tt both of us are goin thru a rough patch..
we meet onni in mths. so mani things happen inbtw
bt we haf nvr quarrelled over aniting.
yesh we alwys get pissed off wif
each othr cos we rareli meet bt othr thn tt..
shes bn reali great. hehe i love u lots lots minzi
haha e best part ish. shes 18 n im 17 bt we nvr felt our
age as a barrier.. both of us are as crazee as wdeva.
in e very few tyms tt we meet n e very few tyms tt we call..
we alwys noe tt we'l b thr fer each othr.
no matter how mani ppl cum into our lives.
shes sumone hu actuali looks
up to me fer all e funni reasons
bt thn again. ive not seen anione hu
expresses themselves as openli as
aynul nazminah shajahan
haha bt thn she contradicts her ownself,
she can bcum as shy as ever in a matter of seconds.
hehehe. tts one of e many things in her
which make me laff whn it happens. hehe
darlin nazminah. we've known each othr fer abt 3 yrs now
we cum to noe of e many differences tt we share as tym goes by
bt wel e differences onni makes us much stronger ....
we met jz nw. which ws hellotsa fun. after soo long
i cudnt stop laffin. thinkin abt us waitin fer each othr
fer an hr or so .. n thn e blackout at plaza sing...
ur nude sketches.. e single scoop choc
ur BUTT! n our hugs on e escalator...
its reali bn a while since we had so much of fun
i appreciate u fer evryting u haf bn .. n fer knowin
tht julie ish always gona b here fer minzi
lotsa loves
muackz
JuLiE

PASIsam

2006-09-07T20:35:00.000+08:00

finalli!!!
its alll over!!
wel not evryting. juz oa fer nw
hhehehe im imagining..
sam sayin "gd mornin julie..
plz cancel my appts todae.."
whahahha
weve bn tokin abt he's openin biz
n me being his PA.
coool!! way coool!
e kindaf things wild imagination can bring us to!
its fun tho. we both haf goals in our minds.
so wel.. haha.. so much of fun noe!
like we haf sth in mind. sth soo excitin soo soo gd tht
its almos too gd to b true n wel. IT IS ACCOMPLISHABLE!
if hard werk and determination is put in.
hmmmmmm.. nice... very very nice
hmmmmm.. in a few yrs to cum.. yesh
as i always say.. JULIE WIL DEF MAKE IT BIG ONE DAE
heheheheh... n i reali mean it.
OA PROJ ish done n over wif
Bonding Hearts Wedding Consultancy.
my biz. wahaha tt took a whole lot of me tym
bt all worthwhile hehe.
todae.. SW.. me zura daya shila nurul n nina..
we played UNO STACKO! whahahahah
fun.. we were like screamin away cos e thing
ws gona topple ani moment
it did aniwae.. wahaha tt ws fun..
FINALI PAUL TWOHILL ISH OUT OF S'PORE IDOL!!!
haha im not reali a big fan of SI2 bt wel..
i tink hady ish e best among e final 3.
wdeva!
my sista.. is floodin my papa's room..
cryin.. i dunnoe wds rong wif her..
paul ish afterall... a nobody la! haish.. crazeee pplz!
u noe at tyms..
ppl.. juz make u feel so good. so special.
i like tt. i reali like tt. gues its cliche la.
hu doesnt like being felt special.
bt wel.. its stil a nice feelin. whn u noe
sumone thinks tt u are someone .
sumone hu doesnt noe u tt well at all.
nice.
nyts
ppl
*hugz*
muackz
JuLiE

oa due tmlmoodlessfeelin blueish

2006-09-04T18:42:00.000+08:00

yesh
as usual e mondae bluez!
access exam. no werds to say
i did wd i can i did wd i knew.
had mock exam fer acf
pink lady wanted to
"scare e living daylight out of us"
which she reali did tho.
cos e exam ish like next wk..
n thrs not much tym left
n evryting has to b like at e back of our hands.
all 4 journals. bank rec. ledgers.
n wdeva not. haish. im stil ok la.
i juz need to brush up on.. erm..
stuff la. haish.
one more wk n schs gona b over.
thrs bzf to study as well..
tonyt me gona b finishin me oa proj
thn cum up wif my 2 week tymtable.
how to spread across my tym over 2 subjects
n various topics . thnk gdness its nth like
e o levelz. wteva fcuk.
hehe lunch was funni..
zura daya shila n me
tokin abt local pornstars hu video emselves
while goin at it.
hehehehe
crazee ppl hu dun haf shame.
wdeva la. yuck man! total yuck!
k fine. so its rainin now.
almos cats n dogs.
im bcumin *moodless*
gues nt evryting can go e way i wan it to b.
so wtf aniwae
wd i need now..
is food. cos im freakin hungry.
im tinkin...
*a hungry woman... is an angry woman*
muackz
JuLiE

kanksamcrush zonelovelife

2006-09-03T14:51:00.000+08:00

boo!
hehe
watched KANK.
finali.. wif thahira n shah.
hmmm. gd movie. i loiike!
cried buckets. whahaha
wel. toked to sam yest!
sooo funniiiiiiii!!!
laff n laff n lafff...
he sumwht resembles..
saiffu n creammu put together.
heheheh
interestin..
haha..
im in e crush zone now.
not me. bt my besties.
whahahhaha
"dae hes soo cute dae"
"julieeeeeee shes sooo hot la"
hahahahaha
ragin hormones! whahahah
its funni how crazee ppl can get
over hehehehe their crushes.
reali cute. suddenli e werld juz turns into
a pile of fresh lovelorn roses fer em..
n all they can do ish smile..
n smile.. n smile mooore..
thinkin of evryting..
which may or may not happen..
even e smallest msg wil sen them flyin
jumpin arnd.. go all poetic..
all lovey dovey. heheh
hmmmmmmmm
i gues evryone goes this
phase eh?
biased or not..
its stil lotsa fun.. hehehe
crush or not crush.
we meet sooo many ppl. in our lives
they all cum in wif diff purposes.
n its not easy to filter hu are e ryt ppl
n hu r those hu are jz a waste of tym.
sum cum in wif fairytale werds
and leev without a happi ending.
sum cum in n b hu they are
gif beautiful memories.
n stay cos they mean well.
n they say...
thrs always tht one special person
hu wil enter ur life
n b ther fer u no matter wd.
wil share ur happi n bad moments.
wil look into ur eyes n its all love u see.
ok tts nice. it wil happen one dae. ok.
n thn thr are a bunch of fools..
hu dunt noe how to let go
[k i admit i used to b one of those fools.]
they juz dun understan
e meanin of "life stil goes on"
all they noe how to do
ish hurt n hurt. n nth else.
god bless these poor souls
hu dun haf a life at all.
wel tts all fer now.
lotsa loves
muackz
JuLiE

teachersdaegold diggerhotnesshappiness*

2006-08-31T10:59:00.000+08:00

OMIGOSH!!!!
TEACHERSDAE PERFORMANCE WAS FANTABULUSOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!
SOO MANI PICTURESTAKESN
SO MUCH OF TEARS.. "HAPPPY" TEARS SHED!!
CONGRATS TO MA DARLINGS...
[PROJ MANAGERS]..
IDA. MARDIAH. NURUL (me oso!!)
[CAST]
IMRAN.SOFEA.DODI.AYU.INTAN.HUYI
YAZID.SEAN.NADZIRA.N MY ONE N ONLI "MRS CHITRA" AINIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII
[MAKEUP]
ZUUUURAAAAAAA! CYNTHIA JIAMING N CYNTHIA'S MUM!
[BACKSTAGE]
TAUFIQ.KHAI.HABIB.(thnk u soo much)hadijah.hayatiCHITCHIT!!!(LOVE YA!)
SAHEERA.ESTHER.LAWSON.JOANNA.
teacher...MDM SALENA...
heheeh we all hadsuch a greatdaetodae.
im proud of u MIC STUDIOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!
N OF COS DAYAAAAHHHHHHHH U ALL WON!!
WOOHOOO
HOT HOT HOT!!!.
lotsa pics were taken.. yet to b uploaded.. heheh
ppl.. go see me frensta in a weeks tym or so ok..
heheh
n thnk u TO (STIL GT LOTS TO GO LEH)hehe..boo!
SAMURAI. for all ur encouragement.CREAMMU oso!!
k now im off.. im off to meet FADHIE N PRESSHY N E REST.
myt watch DEVIL WEARS PRADA!!!
im sorry if e entry is HIDEOUS!MESSY!
btireali.. dun care,. im like such a
"weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee i wanna jump jump n dance" mood
"gold digger" was like freakin hot hot hot hot!
zura me dodi ayu al dancin away.. whahahah
heardsum news abtgold digger..
aiya..
nvm lor.. hahahahah sad oso.. stil hot eyes.. ish always hot eyes!!!!
lotsa lovies babez!
azura juz hit me wif her BOOOOTY!!!
whahahah "NAK JOGET LA SAYA!!"
mmmmmuuuuuuuuuuaaaacccccckkkkzzzzzzzzzzz
JuLiE

mondae redsmicstudio3e3 ' 044e3 ' 05*

2006-08-28T21:43:00.000+08:00

wd a sucky dae...
MONDAE REDS.
(sound like sum ciggy brand)
(marlboro reds or sth)
i gues e onni gd part was
meetin daryll at j8..
haha at e traffic light thr..
n suddenli i realised..
how much i seriousli miss
4e3/3e3 '04'05
hmmmm..
slogin study all e tym daes
bt stil care free enjoyable daes.
i soo wanna go to ytss on thurs.
bt effin bishan ite may not haf a half dae
wallau.. haish.. n exams are nearin so if i chabot..
oso sickenin.. haish haish. bt wdeva it is..
i wil nvr miss moi cca performance.. fer aniting!
so my sucky dae goes like this
effin redhead decyds to bring forward e dateline
for ppt proj. to THIS WEDNESDAE.
wtf wtf wtf!?!?!?!?!??!
k nvm. i shal promise to stare at e pc
all nyt to fin evyting up.
[like i gt a choice nw. wtf]
lunch at toa payoh banquet.
ws thr last wk wif ayu n dodi..
so decyded to haf lunch thr wif e gals.
[excludin shasha hu rushed off.. n by e way..
met mon n jack. whahahah.. we gals foreva laffin away...
fer e first tym.. went silent.. wif.. fear i gues...
hehe. shasha looks lyk baby bkt timah hill.. next to mon..
hus mt everest..hehe no offence la. bt real cute couple tho.
hehe n jack. shiverin .. hehehe]
k bac to banquet .. toa payoh.
gt lost half way.. haish fine! im not familiar wif toa payoh.
so i asked sum ppl thr.. thnk gdness fer e malay auntie. hu knew
bt thr was this lady hu shocked me..
i asked her.. "excuse me.. erm. do u noe whrs e banquet arnd here"
n she went "wads a banquet? may i noe?"
WTH!?!??!?! u live in s'pore n u dunnoe
wd a freakin BANQUET is?!?!?!?!
haish.. k fine. go bac to sch. mic studio performin fer teahers dae
so rehearsal as usual. things goin on ok. lotsa brushin up to do..
u guys wil do great on thursdae!!! *mmmmuackz*
bt MY PROPS WENT MISSING!!!
nvm..sumone muz haf placed em sumwhr.
it cudnt haf bn thrown away or sth
i wil make sure thrs hell to pay if tt happens.
bt wel. of cos im panickin.. i was close to tears.
cos my props include my sari!!!! my blanky!!
haish. tml muz go find mdm salena n figure out hu
cleared e comms hub. evyone juz keeps sayin
"i dunnoe"... haish.. was soo angry. tt whn i came home.
mummy ask me to fry egg.. n it didnt turn out wel..
i screamed my head off.
its not lyk as if i dun noe how to fry eggs.
i love cookin. i experiment in e kitchen.
n fryin eggs is not a big deal.
bt wel. i dunnoe wd i ws thinkin.
abt my freakin one n onni sari la. haish
haish. wel .. muz b positive oso.
it has to b sumwhr in sch.
hmmm
so now here i m .. thinkin
"whrs ma sari... hw m i gona fin e proj...
whys life bcumin more n more challengin..
n THKN GDNESS fer frens like samu n nas..
i feel much better now..."
bOo!
muackz
JuLiE

god has punished me shit

2006-08-25T20:04:00.000+08:00

gosh im pissed
im stressed
n i hate it
i hate evyting now
u noe. i jz wanna
i dunoe
u noe.. u noe.. im missin u again
y shud i.
im havin e tym of my life in sch
evytings gd
bt thn suddenli i miss u
y .. u noe how pissin tt is?
i vagueli rmbr,no i CLEARLY rmbr..
how all i reali looked forward ws u
my weekends were like
"m i goin to meet u.. whr are we goin?
wd tym wil it b? how long cud i b wif u?
lil bit tym oso nvm. juz a while oso can
whr u. how u. this u .. tht u.. YOU"
n thn now. im nth at al.
its like.. its like wtf la.
u cum along.
u do evyting u wanted to.
u wanted to meet. u wanted to make tym fer me
u wanted it. YOU. YOU! YOU.
n thn e same YOU... e same YOU had to tel me
nt to do aniting abt aniting.
wth ish rong wif u. god shd noe.
so after all e hapi happi thingies.
now u are REALI BUSY wif ur werk.
u SERIOUSLI forgot my b dae..(nt cos u didnt wish or wd.. bt cos it made me feel like u were juz purposeli forgetin evyting . aiya i dunoe la.. u juz .. nth )
u canot reply a msg.
ok u were werkin
so after werk or ur free tym YOUR COM DIED ON U
ur internet connection WENT FOR A VACATION
ur LINE GOT CUT COS U DIDNT PAY YOUR BILL
cum on. im sure u gt more excuses ..
so y all this? to avoid me? or isit sth else?
u noe. i can ask soo mani freakin effed up qns.
bt im stil gona get e same freakin vague answers
things tt i wun understan. things like
god has punished me.
GOD HAS PUNISHED U??????
i mean.. did u juz say
GOD HAS PUNISHED U?
wd e eff has tt gt to do wif me>?
i mean like. hello WHRS E EXPLANATION?
u cum here n tel me god has punished u.. n so
im like supposed to "oh .. okok so tts wds happened. ic"
n thn let go.. u noe. it wil b easy to let go,
if i get my qns answered truthfulli
whthr or not e truth ish gona stab thru me.
or wdeva shit
u are freakin hidin sth.
or was it cos i found out e truth?
u noe .. YOU FREAKIN WANNA NOE STH????
i freakin wish tt dae whn i saw u..
i freakin wish tt i had grabbed both ur arms n shoook u well..
wel enuff fer e damn senses of urs to like float bac to earth.
or sth like tt.
i seriousli canot bleev i stood thr like a statued cow in e temple.
wel until e cows cum home oso i dun think anitings gona happen now..
nw i wonder how i let myself into all this
its sickenin u noe.. reali sickenin.
REALI SICKENING!
after evryting .. i stil try to b nice.. i say hello..
i wait patientli fer e sky to drop dwn
i stil do u noe.
julies being nice. wait. im always nice.
u noe.. u freakin noe tt i mean wel.
bt u choose to ignore.avoid.forget.
wadeva shit. n i stil put myself thru it
cos im not like u. i dun hide .
i dun hide myself frm u..
i didnt pretend as if evyting was al ryt
i tol u EXACTLY wd ws happenin.
n EXACTLI how i felt.
i didnt say "god has punished me" shit
cos i was being myself
julie

dead babiesinnocent dead babies*

2006-08-21T08:37:00.000+08:00

daya sent me an email.

on dumped babies..

gosh.. i canot bear to see e pictures..

the babies look too gross.. i mean

im not being mean .. its a very sad situation noe.

haish.. i dun understan HUMAN BEINGS nwdaes..

wtf ish rong wif all of u ppl????!?!?!?

get married... haf sex,, get e baby..n THROW E BABY AWAY

which kinda of human does tt?

ok so u realised tt u dun need the baby..

thn fkin go n send e baby to sum orphange.. or

atleast gif it to sum couple hu are yearnin fer children..

not dump e baby on e road... n wd so evar..

i mean hello.. ITS UR BLOOD.. URS...

entireli created by U N UR SELFISH NEEDS

hw can anione bear to juz leev e baby to die on e steets..

or sum dumpin area..

its such an effin freakin horrible sight ..

dead babies. covered wif dirt.

innocent dead babies.

great lifegreat frenswhrs e light??

2006-08-20T15:50:00.000+08:00

freakin pissed off..
at i dunnoe wd.
wel sumtysm its better to jzu
don bother at alll..
yesh.. wdeva la!
todae had fun at cls..
hehehe
teach e children ..
heheheheh
they are cute lil darlinz..
esp shabana.. this gal.. shes freakin cute la!
yaya shes gt e same name as ma sis.. bt wel
whahah cutie pie seh!!!
was cumin home..
n thn sahib bro..
he tompang me to redhil mrt station..
hes one happenin bro in law i haf@!!!
so far my 3 bros in law oso ponna happenin..
sahib.. siraj..saleem... whahahahah
did i mention..dae b4 yest.. mediacorp..
frm lil india.. we took e train to dhoby ghaut..
we actuali missed e train!! whahahha
we were tokin abt "tunang" stuffies,,
wahahahah
tunang at 16... marry at 17 /18.. aiyooo!!
canot la!!!
whrs e freedom????
after sec sch.. settle dwn wif a hubby?? NO WAY MAN!
sum dun mind gettin married at 21! no la!! stil canot!!!
haish.. 26 ...27... k earliest 25.. not ani younger seh!
wd happen to all e career minded women??
whahhaha all jz wanna get married??
no one got ani goals to achieve ah???
haish!! whahahah..
listenin to NONO bt raghav
brings bac hellotsa memories.
wif fadhie. indix. hudsie.
o lvl prep daes.
nyt classes.
starbucks.
fadhie n hudise usuali get rides home frm their papas.
*weeeeeeeeeeeee*
hmm those were e great deas i reali enjoyed..
nw i gt this nauseas feelin in ma heart...
which usuali means tt im gona cry soon.
bt i wun.. hmmm memories man!
i miss all e gd daes,
grad dae ws e best.
i rmbr preshhy kissed me n fadhie on e cheekz
whahaha so surprised. bt wel those daes
goodness.. whirlwind rollercoaster ride..
wel.. besyds im havin great fun at sch now oso..
ITE life is not as slack as many ppl think..
bt stil i do enjoy myself alot at sch..
wd wif crazy swties... zura daya shasha n shila..
evydae is a new laffin dae.. whahahhaa
hahaha hmmmmmmm
wel.. its a gd thing too goin to sch,,
get to meet new ppl.. frm totali diff bcgrnds..
ppl hu live in e othr syd of e country.
whahaha lifes juz great man..
actuali.. cum to tink of it..
im actuali leadin a great life...
great frens... hu actuali care fer me..
my family.
wd more can i ask fer huh? whahah
mebe i stil wan e light frm within e darkness..
tts wd i tol my mummy.. whn she asked wds botherin me.
i tol her tt i wanted a bf. n she was like "i dun understan u"
"wd problems are u facin.. y u tink like tt"
n i was like. "mummy.. im a teenage gal. i gt lotsa probs.. (actuali not reali la)
so among all e darkness.. my bf wil b e light.. which wil always b thr.."
(waaaaaaaaah.. so drama seh!!! hehe)
wel.. a young gal can dream can't she?!?!!?!?
hehehehe
muackz
JuLiE

i love u minzimiss u lots*

2006-08-19T21:37:00.000+08:00

13. Who You Want to be in Ten Years time..

happili newli married woman wif a successful career and a gorgeous lovin hubby!

09. Your Dream Home: hmmmmm*dreamland*nicebig home wif my kids runnin arnd makin noise nme n my hubby on e couch watchin tv.. nice nice..*winks*

hehe my bulletin answrs..
hmm sumdae.. i wil make it BIG!
hehehe
k .. mediacorp thingie.
didnt go so wel..
bloody jjc fkers.
fel like shootin each n evyone of em
cheerin frm e start to e end..
bloody effin gd fer nths!
at least they gt e lowest points aniwae!
n thn they suddenli cheered fer BISHAN!
"BISHAN U ARE SEXY.. U LOOK SO "WOW""
wtf??? wds rong wif these jjc ppl? gone bonkers or wd?
hmm b4 tt... soo funni tho...
met fadhie aftr sch.. she came to me plc.. we cooked together!!!
mee goreng thingie! whahahaha soo fun!
she fried e egg n ikan bilis. n thn so funni..
n thn i man called.. n i asnwered.. he was lyk..
"er. im sorry i called e rong no."
whahahaha fadhie was rollin on e floor laffin! whahhaha
thn hmm watched fanaa wif her. hehe
thn wen to tekka again
wif zura daya n shilah! finali ate chappatti...
jlnjln saw all e beautiful clothes...
n e beautiful prices too.. haish..
k im currentli listenin to sexy bac by JT.
i dunnoe y.... its kinda makin me go.. high..
nice... nice.. im gettin addicted to it..
gues e music. n e voice n wdeva la. nice.
k its sat todae. hhmm damn tv in e hall not werkin!
haish. hmmm wanna watch KANK. soon.
went fer mic todae,..
teachers dae rehearsal lotsa stuffies to do..

hmmm...

i guess im pmsin..

im sad.. kinda pissed.. n kinda not so good.. n gd..

all at one go..

y sia.. i dunnoe.. nth bad has happened

yet i dun feel gd at alll

im findin fer sth... happy..

i dunnoe la..

minziz cryin.. i bloody hel wish she wudnt..

i miss her to bits man

I MISS U LA MINZI

PLZ DUN CRY

I LOVE YOU

LOTS LOTSLOTS

cryin helps whn u wanna let dwn e burden

i guess.. bt stil.. gettin overli affected by aniting..

wil nvr help in aniway ..

darlz. i gues i pretty much dun reali noe how ur feelin..

i hope i cud b by ur syd to comfort u.. n im not..

i feel lyk a bloody witchbitch

i miss u lots darlz. plz dun cry.

we shal meet soon..

n e happi daes wil b bac.

trust me..

i wil make sure e happi daes cum bac.

e daes whn it ws jz u n me..

n hellotsa craziness...

rmbr e movie?? hehe.. juz like tt

whn u were at my plc..

n we were arguein abt my mummys cookin

lotsaloves

muackz

JuLiE

moodswingmaplingmic studio

2006-08-16T22:19:00.000+08:00

moodless..
totalli..
altho i had lotsa fun in sch todae...
haish.. on me way home.
saw few ppl i noe..
sangaran.. n his gal..
jason.. wif sum gal..
jac n brametha..
i gues it did show on me face tt i didnt wanna tok.
haish. i duno y. moodswings. i had a sudden urge juz to cum home.
n hug my pillow. reali tight.
totalli moodless man.
juz like tt..
ws late to sch..
fer e fact tt i was on e fone til 2 plus e nyt b4..
thn mornin canot wake up..
whahahahaha
bt fun tho. maple n more maple n more MAPLE!
sumone said they wud cum .. at 1 20 in e mornin..
to me plc.. bt thn.. ws LAZY. n thn said
"i didnt wan to put u in a tight spot"
looosu la neee maple paitiyum!
k bac to sch...
microsoft access database.. sucks..
esp whn u dun pay attn at all. n surf thru blogs.
whahahahha
lunch at ljs...
5 of us.
e damn lady ws moppin e floor.
at wd tym sia.. 12 noon..
whn u get lotsa customers. toopid!
n thn gif one fked up face
tok abt BAD CUSTOMER SERVICE
makan makan. n tok abt naq n hao jie.
funni .. me clsmates. whahahah
me n zura were practicalli dyin of dehydration..
ponna thirsty sia! weather damn humid seh..
n i saw cm2 todae!! gosh those eyes! whahaha
thn i had to redeem after bzf..
we were tokin crap ..
zura daya shila n me.. shasha left first.
thn we played.. HANG MAN!
whah i came up wif e werds n phrases..
e funniest one was e last one..
"how d'you get to sesame street?"
whaha atleast fer tt one they all took a while
to figure outt.. whahhaha
tmls thurs.
ive studied unit 4.. public sector..
fer e test..
bt e major topic lies on unit 5..
soo mani things to study..
later la..
or tml...
hmmm
fri muz go mediacorp.
its show tym!
MIC STUDIO ROCKZ!
muz win muz win!
bt lecheh ah.. muz wear sch u..
haish.. nvm.. all in e name of SCH!
wdeva!.. hmm
n thn it ws planned tt i shd b meetin a mnky
after e show.
lets see whether e mnky rmbrs..
or er... oops. mnkys are lazy thingies.
so wel. lets see.. whahhaha
bt its bn a loong tym ive seen this mnky.
whahhahaha
wel wel. weddin consultancy proj goin..
er.. bad. onni one slide done. stil gt 14 more sia!
due on sep 4... can can.. sure can make it!
"tere dil me mere sahsoon ko panaa mil jaye
tere ishq me mere jaan fanaa ho jaye"
i love this phrase,...
e way zooni wil say it to rehan..
rehan khan..(sounds soo hot.. shal name
my future son tt.. rehan khan... hmmmmm )
in fanaa..
"may my life's breath find refuge in ur heart
destroyed in ur love may my life depart.."
tts wd in means in eng.. wahhahaha
http://karmalicious.blogs.friendster.com/my_blog/2006/08/fanaainsist_on_.html ppl go see me frensta blog. if u ppl dont usuali frequent tt.. nvm
bt e lyrics to Chand Sifarish... e eng ones. i gt em thr..
whahah sooo e romantic...
wel... im tired..
bt im gona drink up mummys coffee n study fer e test..
lotsa loves
muackz
JuLiE

chappatien laifahmyweddin consultancy*

2006-08-15T08:33:00.000+08:00

hmmm..
its 8 29.. n its tuesdae..
n im eatin doubledecker
pranky prawn crackers..
hungry seh.
yest was an eventful dae..
i myt say..
whhahaah
considering me n daya actuali made
zuras dream cum true!!
we went to tekka market to hav lunch..
i suddenli had a cravin fer chappatti(bt stil ended up eatin muttun chop)
n thr we were..
me daya n zura..
eatin.. n en lai appears out of nowhr.. interviewin ppl..
n it was being caught on tape..
n zura went bonkers!!
whahha
n whaha we did get interviewd by him as well
whahahahhaha
hmmm..
im gona "start" a new busness,...
weddin consultancy..
part of an OA proj..
much go find out on market shres..
wds my niche produc..
haish!!
yets... fahmy asked me a stupid qn..
"zulaiha.. are u a muslim?"
me n zura.. were laffin like crazee..
n th zura was lyk.. "doesnt e name zulaiha sound muslim to u?"
n thn after tt he asked ant wierd qn..
so do u speak INDIAN????
wth!?!??!!? i dunt speak indian.. i speak TAMIL..
which is e name of e language i speak..
indian.. is e name of e race ...
juz cos ppl frm e Malay race speal Malay..
n ppl frm e Chinese race speak Chinese..
u dun assume tht indian ppl speak INDIAN!!!
haish.. haha im not like offended by fahmy or sth..
bt wel.. alot of ppl make tis mistake ..
n so much fer racial harmony,,
whr evryone is supposed to noe atleats e
basics of each race n religion in singapore..
haish. hmmmmmmmm
todaes mummys b dae,
whahaha..
gona buy a rose fer her. made jellies fer her,,
n shes bncravin fer hersheys pie..
wahahaha shal get lotsa tt fer her too..
hmmmmmmm
mummys 40 todae...
erm. i suddenli rmbr.
e pink lady.. she started tokin to her waterbottle todae..
she seemed to b askin qns to e cls..
n evyone seemed to b ignoring her..
n so she started tokin to her waterbottle..
ws a funni sight..
whahahhaha
n tml!! ish.. jaffus b dae!! waahhaha
wel wel wel. todae is INDIA's independance day tooo..
august 15 2006.
wel i gtg liao.
must get reday fer sch...
haish
muackz
JuLiE

sexabortionfoetus urgh*

2006-08-14T08:36:00.000+08:00

wahahahah
e course manager toked abt abortion to us jz now..
im now at OA. (a3-02)
whahahahaha
ABORTION SEH!
of all things..
me n zura were wnderin..
y she tellin us??
hehe.. sth abt yest newspapers..
this gal... 15.. n e guy she had sex wif.. 19..
n he claimed tt he werked as a loan shark...
wtf.. nonsense... haiz..
n thn e teacher called herself "aunty"
liek she said tt.. shes not advicin as as e course manager..
bt sth like our "aunty"
wahahhaha
n she also said sth abt a gal..
tokin to her sista in e room..
abt whr to go fer shoppin afr e operation..
sialla... like abortion is reali nth at all..
n thn e "aunty" very funni..
she ws like "so plz dont haf pre-marital sex"
like police givin instructions like tt
thn after tt.. even more funni
"but if u reali think u haf got to haf sex...PLZ USE CONDOMS"
whahahahahhahahahaha
like teachin smal kids. bt wel.. whaha
sth she said reali had a point tho..
"love cums wif respect..
so if ur gf/bf forces u to haf sex ..
thn he.she doesnt respect u..
n so.. he/she ish not worth it at all..
you deserve better!!"
whahahahaha
hmmm
wel wel wel..
aftr assembly me zura daya n shasha
were tokin abt e abortion videoclips..
ive seen those b4. i stil rmbr.. sec 2..
whahahah
me.prashant.huda.faizal.indrani.all watchin it. holdin hands.
whahahha.. yuckiness man. gross. n wel.. painful too.
like foetus all thrown in a rubbish dumb thingie..
n thn a doctor actuali was holdin onto sth.. n i cudnt figure wd it ws..
n thn i realised.. tht it was a foetus' hand.. juz e hand onni
gosh.. wth. these freakin gals hu haf abortion.. no brains sia..
wtf haf sex fer.. whn u gona abort e child!?!!?!?!??!?!
haish!!!!! im feelin so.. er.. yucki..
like urhg! wdeva la!
bOo!
muackz
JulIe

i cried..dunnoe y.. boohuggies lots lots

2006-08-11T22:19:00.000+08:00

k i feel like shit..
i cried todae..
was at wdlnds.
waitin fer fadhie
n hu shd i seee.
fadzil..
nvr in my life did i tink i wud see him
n thr i was standin.. lookin into his eyes.
i gues i was searchin fer sth in em.
bt i saw nth at all.. nth nth nth...
n all i cud think of was to hug him immediateli.
he asked whthr i msged him
n said tt he was werkin.
i cudnt much say aniting.
kinda toungue-tied..
n my heart felt heavy,... damn heavy...
n thn i asked whthr he ws goin home..
n he was like ya..
n he asked wd i was doin thr..
i tol him tt i was waitin fer a fren..
n thn he was like lookin at me.. wif a queationin gesture..
n i dunnoe. i juz looked at his eyes.
to tink i ws thknin of him n tokin abt him e nyt b4
n to see him todae.
n he left.. i watched his retreatin bac all e while
he didnt even turn bhyd.
i wanted to ask him. hw cum he gt so bz n he forgot me b dae.
bt i was.. toungue-tied
n thn.. thr i was standin alone.. waitin er fadhie to cum..
in my mind.. "whr e fk is she. i need her now .. whr ish fadhie whr ish fadhie"
n thn she appeears. i walk soo fast to her.. n wif teary eyes. i was lyk . i jz saw fadzil..
n she was lyk.."aiya dun bother abt him la..eh dun cry ah..meet me canot cry ok"
n thn b4 i noe it.. im cryin... like i lost my life or sth
n thn in e middle of causeway .. in btw kfc n e cake shop..
i asked fadhie.."can u hug me?"
n i hugged her fer long..
wif tears dwn my cheeks.
wtf..
fadhie was lyk.. "wad a great welcome i get..
i cum to meet my best fren aftr a wk,. n e first thing she does.. is to cry"
i mean she was tyrin to make me laff.. fahdie ish a clown so i always end up laffin
even if i was cryin all e while b4
hmmmmmm...
haiz
n thn we ate at mac.. n i started eatin me fries soo fast.. lyk practicali gobbled me food as fast as possible..
haish i dunnoe la. i dunoe dunoe dunoeeeeee
wel enuf of e sad part..
aftr tt fadhie n i walked arnd..
thn at metro i took 2 black tops i liked..
n tried em on..
wahahah both oso ponna low neck..
n fadhie was lyk..
"sexxy!!" haha she like me waist whahaha *shy* to think tt sumoen actuali tot tt i had a nice waist.. of all things... whahahhaha
whahha..
aiya im fat la..
big fat tuummy..
get tt out n i haf no problem wearin aniting like tt..
haiz.. wait lor.. soon .. soon..
mus fast lor..[ramadan cumin niwae]
thn i haven even pay bac yet..
tsktsk..
thn was telin fadhie abt greys anatomy..
e gal who had orgasms out of no whr..
we were laffin like crazee...
thn tok abt makin out..
whahah..
wif fadhie.. sure we tok abt makin out..
whahahahha
nonsense.. whahhaha
bt funni wd..
fadhie.. i love u soo much
thnks fer liek toleratin me.. n my emo emo self.
julie n cryin always gd frens.. which is NVR GOOD!
wdeva la. now goin to rifah's hse to get "fanaa"
dvd.. thn cum home n watch..
bye bye one n all.
muackz
JuLiE

in oa . blah

2006-08-11T09:31:00.000+08:00

hmm.. at OA now..
slackin as usual...
im freakin hungry..
haven eaten niting since yests' lunch..
ask zura acompany me to canteen..
n went all e way thr to open me wallet n
see tt i forgotten to bring money to sch..
wtf sia!!!
n my external source oso i nvr bring.. haish
thnk gd ness sch finishin at 11...
go home.. makan.. thn
later gt mic studio
muz cum bac to sch...
supposed to meet akhber in e evenin..
bt e pandi canot make it..
fine...
wil cal fadhie.. whn im home..
shd b able to meet her.. e last tym me saw her .. ws on me b dae..
soooo loong ago seh!!!
mish her lots!
chat wif nasee yest..
hmm..
wel past ish past..
wahhaha
i gues i stil do mis fadzil.
bt wel.. sumtyms ..
i jz shdnt bother animore..
whahaha
ive gt lotsa othr thingies to do..
lyk happili crushin e chad michael murray lookalike..
whahaha saw him todae too...
was lookin arnd fer him.. while walkin on e way to sch....
n thn realised tht ain was walkin
besyd me n i didnt even notice her...
wahaah wel wel wel..
hes hot hot hot! e eyes man..
one cud get lost in em.. whahah
(k tts abit.. er.. wdeva!!)
hmmmmmmm
aug 18... mic studios chanel 8 performance
muz wear sch u seh!!
duwanna ah!!
haish!
its soo friggin cold in thr..
n muz wear sch skirt.. haish!
okok wdeva la.. wil blog later..
OA ish finaliover..
now fer an hr of friggin BZF..
n btw.. i gt 49/50 fer ca 2
whahaha first in cls..
whahahah
:P
lotsa love
muackz
JuLiE

drop it like its hotgreat lookshot moves

2006-08-08T14:05:00.000+08:00

gosh!!!
hes soo freakin hot!!!!!!!!
gosh gosh! *blushblush*
whahhaha
"drop it like its hot"
hes gt e mos gorgeous eyes ive eva seen..
n thn .. hes gt a hot bod..
n hes SEXXEEY!!
wahhaha
crush alert!
haha hmmm...
saw jason at mrt station..
on e way bac home..
gosh he looks sooo diff!
taller.. n wel diff la..
so happi to see him
we both were frm same pri sch n sec sch..
haha second yr in ite amk...
after tt NS.. whahahha
poor thing.. hehehe
walked wif him til e lift at his blk..
n he was lyk
"sen me until my hse ah u!"
whahahha
todae... national dae celebrations in sch..
alot of ppl wear cultural costumes n so on..
whaha me didnt.. no mood la.. whahah
e contemporary dance was nice.
i mean i appreciate it..
its a form of art.. tts all.
sum ppl jzu dunoe hw to
appreciate this kinda stuff at tyms
thn e act 3 performance HILARIOUS!
wahhahahah...
i wish i cud act THAT naturalli..
whahah comedy n all... hmmm..
thn e thing ended wif farahs singin..
e national enthem... (is tt correct spellin)
thn me shilah daya shasha zura n ikhwan
n naq(hu went missin suddenli)
went to canteen.. to hear e guys jammin.
wahhaha fun.. zura ws like runnin to e canteen.
wahahahhaha
thn lunch at sch..
thn e 2 gilers went home..
they include wan n shasha.
whahah
e rest of us.. went window shoppin..
walk walk arnd.. all ovr j8..
laffin at almos evy single thing...
e bags at seiyu... whahhaha
thn at best denki.. chkin out e fkin hot lappys!!
thn moved on to e canon digital ixus cammies
me n daya were like.. dyin fer em...
thn tvs.. lcd screens.. tv cum computers..
fuyoooo!! thn moved on to more
hsewife stuffies... fun sia..
phillips blenders.. to
ovens... washin machines..
n ma fav.. REFRIDEGERATORS!
whahahha... suddenli felt like
u noe. buyin a hse n havin all those stuffies thr..
money la.. money..
wil fall frm e sky! haish!
hehehe... saturdae ish impt dae...
fer aisha n saleem!!
whahha
pre-engagement stuff i tink .. tts wd u call it..
haha im gona put henna!! woohooo!
wil b stayin ovr on fri at her plc.
hope to haf lotsa fun fun fun!
whahah.. tml national dae..
HAPPY B DAE SINGAPORE..
did i ever mention my father n singapore are of e same age...
papa was born in 1965.. whahhahaha
wel.. tml wil b bringin me nieces to e zoo!
whahahah they've nvr bn thr.. n whaha e last tym i went to e zoo..
i was 7 yrs old.. which ws 10 yrs ago...
n fadhie was sayin tt she hasnt bn to e zoo fer a loong tym oso..
hope she can make it.. whahhahaha
kinda funni.. national dae.. go to zoo..
bt welll...it happens to b e
onni dae whn all of us are free...
so its ok... n plus they wil def haf an
encore telecast of e ndp 2006
wel.. pplz. i shal say hi n sen salaams
to all ur frens at e zoo.. juz fer u!
lotsa loves
muackz
JuLiE

kunguma vannathodu mangei vennilaa

2006-08-06T19:25:00.000+08:00

ok fine.

i dunnoe y things turned out to b like tt..

er. actuali of cos i do.

n its not MY FAULT!

so dun stare at me e way u did last nyt

sumone tol me tt mebe u were guilty.

were u? do u feel aniting near tt?

i half expected u to turn up yest

bt i didnt expect myself to b such

an emotional wreck.

u juz totali avoided me. ryt under my nose~!

so wad ws tt all abt?

muz haf walked past me a thousand tyms.

wif ur face turned e othr way

u noe how much tt hurt

i felt as if i asked fer it

like i made a huge mistake

whn all i did. was to call u cos i

freeakin missed u dammit!

u are my fren. was it such a mistake to call u????

n so u had to diss me off ... fer her..

n thn cal me bac 10 min later

to apologise..

whn e damage was already done.

juz a smal acknowledgement

wudnt haf hurt u so much ryt?

i guess i lost e fren i knew.

e one i cud connect wif..

e one hu knew me in n out..

e one hu said tt i wud nvr get att..

without lettin u noe.

"my julie wil nvr do tt"

wd happened to "my julie" yest?

ws she invisible.?

ok so u stared.. y

i didnt now hw to react to u..

emotional wreck.

n thn e song.

i gues mebe u rmbred

tellin me tt e song wud def suit my voice.

n u played it thrice.

was it juz cos u liked e song..

or cos u wanted it to mean sth?

i missed evrything abt u..

bt thr was no happiness whn i saw u yest

y not? cos u made it tt way darlz

u. u made it tt way

no doubt im hurt deep dwn

bt seriousli i hope i reali meant sth to u..

whn we were gd frens...

cos u stil mean alot to me..

even tho things are like

way beyond wdeva!

suddenli.. im rmbrin wd u said.

"eh wif me tt wud nvr happen"

u said tt

whn i tol u tt its usuali my

"frens" leevin me

goin MIA n im left alone

you noe.

ive let out my frustration.

yet i stil dunt feel gd

ur face is stil llingerin in my head.

ur eyes.. whn u were starin.

mebe u were not even starin at me.

i dunnoe dunoe dunoe!!

guez u lead a diff life now..

n julies def nt part of it..

bt juz in case u dont noe

u are always a part of my life

n i mean it

always

muackz

JuLiE

in denial of my heartbreak

2006-08-01T23:05:00.001+08:00

hihi!!
wd a dae todae!!
whahahaha
i haven laffed soo much
in soooo looong!!!
JOKE OF E DAY
e damn toopid fella
hu asked fer shahidah's number..
fer his damnated fren!
wahahahah...
asked him whr he schlin..
he look soo blur..
worse thn sotong sia...
needs to scratch his head
n think of ans summore..
wahahha daya's version of his reaction..
gosh.. sent me laffin my head off..
whahahahhahahaha
thn go bac lesson OA. hash. ca2 on fri
thn bzf. thn sch ovr.
went to wdlnds library
sat thr did acf..
thn ws studyin bzf..
was sittin at this table ah..
thn two malay guys came asked
whthr anione else sittin..
so i said no.. thn they sat la.
frm e foolscap paper they usin
i saw they were frm si ling sec..
bt both look like poly students ..
n e guy on e left.. wallau.. soo cute!!!
i ws memorisin def of factors of production bzf
n in me head.. *gosh this fellas cute!!*
whahahhah
haha..left library at 7 30 plus..
came home.. n saw cheesecake on e table!!!
indrani.. she bought me cheesecake,,
came all e way to me hse to gif it to me!
gosh! shes swt! tho she can b irritatin mos of e othr tyms..
bt hahaha.. i was touched. she ready tol me tt she
had a surprise wahhaha..
hmmmmmmm...
n now.. im tinkin. she bought me mac brkfst on my bdae
sec 3 thn.. whaha loosu la she!
wel..
im happi.. lalalla!! i asked creammu fer a lamborghini in his testimonial.
whahahahha n i suggested he cud b e driver if he wanted to oso..
whahahahah....
tot abt cap alot.. "wel. life goes on" (pink lady phrase)
todae seh tok abt black ginseng being rooted to e floor...
cudnt stop laffin seh....
laffed alot todae.. hmm
gd lor!! hehehe
*in denial of my heartbreak*
muackz
JuLiE

anger.frustration.hilarious.gunduus

2006-07-31T21:50:00.000+08:00

weeeeeeeeeeeeeee...
acf ca2 finish liao!
it kinda rocked actualli..
considerin havin spent e nyt b4
screwin my head! ovr damnated discount a/c.stuffs.
was soo angry cos i cudnt get e stuff ryt,
was listenin to shut up by bep..
i started screamin! i mean sing cum scream..
e kinda thing u do to let out e steam..e anger.
"Girl our love is dyin
Why can't you stop tryin
I never been a quitah
But I do deserve betta
Believe me I will do bad
Let's forget the pastAnd let's start this new plan
Why? Cuz it's the same old routineAnd then next week I hear them scream
Girl I know you're tired of the things they say
You're damn rightCuz I heard them lame dame excuses just yesterday
That was a different thing
No it ain't
That was a different thing
No it ain't
That was a different thing
It was the same damn thing
Same ass excuses
Boy you're usless
Whhoooaaaa (this is whr i screamed n thn i realised tht i was screamin..)

wahhaha
trust my panicy self to websms creammu...
"PAANNNIIIICCC" he was slpin.. so poor thing.
i woke him up. scarin him. wahhahaha so lucki slp til late.
thn go sch later onni hehehe..hmmm...
hes one lucky person.. all assignments ovr liao..
soon exams.. thn no more sch i guess!! wallau so gd!
haish.. nvm.. my turn wil cum soon! hmmm
a big burden was off me chest aftr e paper..
heheheh.. gd lor.. break tym was soo funni..
actualli.. durin OA... first lesson todae,,
hilarious.. daya.. nina..esp zura...
askin to repeat e a/cs... wahhaah her gestures..
for memorising!!! whahahha... like miming!
thn at lunch... at sch..
zura n i suddenli went off to our memory lane..
camps at jalan bahtera.. hers pri 5... mine sec 3
sooo funni.... i rmbr fadhie... she was on top of e thingie..
scared to cum down.. huggin to e pole.. hangin on to dear life..
thn e teacher was like askin her to get dwn faster..
n she was liek"noooo.. i scared!!!!" whahahahhaha
we had soo much fun durin e camp...
n zura was telin me abt her fren at e absailing..shiverin all ovr.
cos she was afraid to go dwn or sth.. HILARIOUS SIA!
whahahahah'
hmm thn mic studio..
scripts all done.. proposal done too..
by wahida... hmmm
soo funni... "i can see e musical"
whahahahahah
we had fun "actin cum readin" out
e thing fer mdm salena to chk e tymin...
heheheh
aini is a great actress.. n so is wahida..
wahahhaha... moi seniors...
wel.. funni dae...
laffed til gt tears.. hhehehhe
thank gdness schs startin at 10 tml..
was doodling in ma notebk while waitin fer cca to start...
personal encouragements fer exams! whahahah
n thn oso abt hw sum ppl juz cum n go..
doin soo mani things in btw..
" tell me wd u wan me to do..
you took me for a fool...
im broken insyd bcos of u,
what you do to me...
tot u wer evrytin i wud ever need"
looklike sum lyrics frm songs...
bt no.. straight frm me head.. onto paper.
whahahah
whn e mood is thr.. stuff jz cum..
wdeva la.. whahahha
i wanna watch greys anatomy.. whahah
sendin songs to akki n creammu.. thn im done..
lotsa loves..
mmmmmmmmmmuackz (in a gd mood)(wahaha)
JuLiE

dOoDlEsnOoDlEsmUmMy

2006-07-27T19:03:00.000+08:00

hmmmm..
aloha ..
aaaachuuuuu!!!
sick la dae!!! nt gd at all!!
sneez so many tyms durin acf..
like waaad onni seh
took al.. n left.
hmm was late to sch todae...
saw nadia n shila at mac..
whahah had brkfast wif em..
n slept durin bzf.. until
linda accidentali hit me..
hehehe...
my MUMMYS E MOST SWEETEST PERSON ON EARTH!
k i'l tel y in a while..
of cos shes e best.. no matter wd.. hehe
durin bzf.. so tt i wun slp. i was doodling me tots..
nt exactly a poem.. bt can la.. haha here.

Its e eve of my special day
I look out e window, e leaves sway
I'm thinking, how things went,
on your special day

How i looked forward for
anything with you

Teary eyes blur my vision (no more tho)

How i wish those days wud cum bac

The affection - the care - the concern-
the sweet lil nths..which made my day

If you are reading this ryt now
you haf no idea what im gong thru

You had things your way
you chose not to stay

Memories linger all the tym
of cos i smile thru each of em

But still, i guess, i don't have a say at all...

YEPS. julies doodlings durin bzf.. hehehhe
hmm.. funni how juz a mth ago..
i was havin a fly of a tym..(meanin gd tym la)
n now.. wel.. things haf changed.
k bac to my mummy...
she... my darlin mummy..
she actuali sent me a card!!!
fer my b dae...
like soo swt sia!!!!
thr ws no sign off.. so i was kinda freakin out..
thinkin hu it ws... esp whn e handwritin was freakin familiar.
i tot it ws thahira... she alwys sens me cards. so i actuali called to thnk her.
n mummy ws quiet all e while... like normal la...n i had no clue.
thahirah was liek.. huh? wd card.. did i sen u one?
n thn it got to me... HAIYO.. how cud i haf nt regognised e writing..
heheh.. bt soo swt of my mummy! i hugged her on e spot!!
hmmmm.... swt.
wel... ryt now.. muz finish excel.. n wel.. hehehe
mebe i'l blog later whahahaha
lotsa loooove
muackz
JuLiE

aNoThEr dAe gOeS bY

2006-07-26T22:54:00.000+08:00

hmmmm.....
wad a dae todae..
was almos late to sch...
forgot to bring money...
whaha bt used an external source..
whahahah..
hmm.. its like friggin stressing..
i gt to finish up my scenin stuffies.
thrs acf ca 2 on mondae...
n i stil thinkin..
abt goin fer e mc auditions...
hahahah....
fer e carnival thingie..
on creammus b dae...
sep 23... dae b4 ramadan..
haiz. see me mood..
weekend muz study like fish!
cashbook...
pettycashbook
ledgers..
was soo friggin irritated wif
e pink lady..(decyded to call her tt)
gosh.. shes nt encouragin at all !
wtf sia!!!! ok we noe..
e papers gona suck bonkers big tym.
bt u noe.. dun make it sound HOPELESS...
i friggin wan an A.. i mus~!
tt bloody tooopid qn..jz now.. to do in 20 min.
sucked la! seriousli! haiz..
plan plan PLAN..PLAAANNN...
cashbk...acf..ledger.. wallau!
head pain...
thrs stil bzf...
tho the mini test ws soo funni
hahaha almos same qns.
hope e actual ca wil b tt ez..
hmmm
was at wdlnds..
wif man.. imran n hanis..
at first....
we started off wif scene one..
our scripts.. characters...
thn we sidetracked...
abit on hanis sch stuffs
(gosh lotsa awards man!)
our electives..
bankin n finance..
biz managemnt.. whts gd n not..
teachers hehehe (scoops frm hanis)
thn out of nowhr ramadan... religious stuffs...
thn suddenli fashion..
jubilee hall..
n thn birthdays...
whahahahhaha
on n on n on...
finali left e plc took train..
bac home jz nice fer SI
i liked twohils song..
michael buble ROCKZ
SAVE E LAST DANCE FER ME..
one of ma mos fav songs.. whaha
jazz rocks.. whn im in e mood..
heheheh
tmls thurs..
gt s&w...
hope it rains.. hehe thn play badminton...
aiya.. haven do hmwk....acf..
stil muz prac petty cash bk..
its ecjactli 11 40... no moood ah
chatiin wif irsath...
hahahaha old aquaintence..
can say ah...
wel.. gtg liao...
lotsa love..
muackz
JuLiE

mooooo

2006-07-25T13:41:00.000+08:00

hmm.. OA nw...
at sch..
new skin..
whahahah earli mornin explorin blogger stuffies...
juz had big biig lunch at KFC.
thnk gdness fer student meals nw daes.. hehehhe
full sia...
wan to meet fadhie.
bt duneo whthr she gt samba...
samba.. sambaaaa... e brazillian samba..
whahahah no.. samba.. is not dancin.. er..
concernin fadhie.. its e drums thingie..
wahahahh sch tym now...
later... booooooooo
mooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

~'dAnCe iN tHe rAiN'~

2006-07-25T07:40:00.000+08:00

first dae of sch...(aftr e holz)
was yest... kinda mixture of sucky yucky stuff
wif al e fun stuff..
bt wel.. evyone looked gloomy..
no one looked interested in sch..
wahahhaa...
like in sec sch.. things wud haf bn
so buzzy.. wd wif last min hmwk..
catchin up on stuff.. n so on.
bt wel..
i noe i missed me frens..
wahaha
first thing i did whn i saw daya..
"gosh i miss u!!" wif a huggi!
nt onni her e rest too..
thr we were at mac havin lunch..
tokin abt all kinda crap under e sun
wahhahahah
startin frm dunnoe wd..
to sitinurhaliza being a brainless..
n wahhahaha so funni..
desperate hsewifes... last wks episode..
tt was sooo funni..
zura n i almos rolled outtaf our chairs..
hehehhehe..
kinda feels gd to jzu chit chat..
n laff our heads out.. aftr soo loong..
girl wd! wd u expect..
hehehehehhehe
thn mic studio..
"authority" heheh
wd shariman n imran say..
being project managers...
we handle evyting..
wahahah
bt dateline is like on mondae
we haf to submit our script n proposal..
hehehe.. its all on commitment..
bt werkin wif mardia.. hanis.. imran n shariman..
gosh.. helluva fun!! cumin up wif crazy ideas
for e skit cum musical.... whahahha
guess this is how me life goes on...
gotta study. next week is exam week..
gotta do my scene 3a fer mic
gotta prac acf.. haiz.
tym management n julie..
very far away..
bt tts gotta haf to change...
onni a fw wks away frm e actual end-module assessment
im panickin now!! whahahah
in sec sch.. i wudnt haf bothered til.. mebe a week b4 e real thing
haha things haf changed..
fer e better too! hehehhe
get all e "A" s n forget abt e modules once their done..
stil got mani to cum aniwae..
hmmm..
i feel like a goody twoshoe nw.. bt hu cares.
blah..
was tokin to akhber yest...
kinda miss him haven met him in a way long tym..
both tokin abt playin in e rain.. hehe bn a loong loong tym
i wanna dance in e rain..
like u noe bal room dancin kinda thingie..
bt in e rain.. fully dressed out in a slinky black dress..
and huevers dancin wif me... wearin a tux.. or sth like tt
n we slow dance in e rain. in a quiet plc..
weeeeeeeeeee.....
heheh.. its 8 o clk.. gtg..
lotsa love
muackz
JuLiE

cHeEsE cAkEcHoCoLaTe sAuCeoN vAnIlLa cAkE

2006-07-20T09:37:00.000+08:00

i m like oso freakin irritated. cos i canot get e things i want done..
i wan cheese cake.. na-ah.. no cheescake in da hse... haiz
n e bloody neighbours door is open. at 8 30 in e mornin.. fer wad.
i haf no freakin idea. wtf sia!!!!
haiz haizhiaz
u noe whn u gt this.. strong feelin. whn u seriousli wan sth..
n whn u canot get it done. or sth.. its soo freakin IRRITATIN LOR!
i gues im pushin me luck a lil too far at tyms. wahhaha..
well onni fr todae.. no fer sum tym..
thn sch wil start.. thn evytin wil b bac to normal again.. in no tym at all.. hehe
haha.. sumtyms i wish our heads.. were sth like printers.. with an openin at e top..
we juz insert notes.. textbooks n soo on.. n we'l b brainy.. all e kwledge insyd ..
no need to study thn... its sth i alwys tt abt since i ws in pri sch hehe
kinda wierd.. very. bt hu cares. leev evyting to imagination .. helps at tyms.
eatin chocolate nw to relax me mind..
I WAN E DAMNED NEIGHBOURS DOOR CLOSED NOW!!!
haiz... wtf wtf wtf...
cheese cake sumbody.. plz.. cheese cake!! m tinkin.. shd i run dwn to 7 11..
i haf a cravin fer e damnated cheese cake. . n anitin chocolate..
vannila cake wif cream.. n chocolate sauce.. foooyooo!! temptin...
n a zillion calories too! i wanna bake cake.. soo long since i meddled wif ma mummys old oven...
hehehe old.. as in freakin old oven. hhahahah wud b fun..e last tym i baked walnut brownies.. recipe thnks to hudsie.. heheheh. i wanna cook sth wholesome n juz eat! i feel like a fatty piggy now.. bt i dun care.. indulge in gdness (food) whn u are angry... hehehhehe
lotsa love
cheese cake
chocolate sauce
muackz
JuLiE

sAiFuL

2006-07-15T21:24:00.000+08:00

tokin to saiffuul!!!!
wahahahahahahaha
soo funni.....
he calls me ma ful name...
hhehe.. i kinda like tt..
usualli guys call me julie... hes insists on calin me zulaiha..
haiz... wahahaha
lives in bukit mehrahhh.
hendersen sec...
7 strokes of cane
wahahahaha
love e way he toks la.. wahahahaha
sooo funni...
muackz
JuLiE

sEcOnD cHaNcE

2006-07-13T12:18:00.000+08:00

hmmmm..

"it isnt until u finali run up against your deepest demons-your unsolvable problems-the ones that make you who you truly are-that you're ready to find a lifelong mate. Only then do you noe wd u are looking for"

"you are looking for the wrong person. But not just any wrong person: the "right" wrong person-someone you lovingly gaze upon and think, "This is the problem i want to have"

"i wil find tt special person who is wrong for me in just the right way"

sth to tink abt eh... by Andrew Boyd (huever he is.. bt hes werds mean alot )

im feelin kinda queasy weezy.. dunnoe y. gt two ppl in mind. heheh
fadhie... hehe bn meetin up recentli.. hangin out.. wahhahaha. this gal.. BLUR QUEEN! wahhahah.. crazee.. toks without tot at tyms.. wahhaha hehe at town.. esplanade.. thn me hse.. wahahhahahaha miss me secsch daes.. wish things werent this way.. bt well.. i gt fadhie.. n fadhie gt me.. wahhaha love u darlz!

hmm listenin to "hero" mariah carey.. sad sad. i dun feel gd .. i reali dont.. i wan sum excitement... wahhahaha sth to keep me goin forward.. sth.. aniting.. wahhaha..

desperate bitch....

2006-07-10T21:45:00.000+08:00

n yeah happens again.. im like soo sick in tired of evyting.
u may not noe, noe ryt nw, the pain i feel, its so real, no matter whr e future lies, i see ryt now.. only u n i..
waaaah im breakin insyd la!
i tink of him like all e tym noe. n i wanna ask so mani things...
i wanna b clear headed..
bt im freakin frightened!!!!
frightened of wd?? of wd answer i wil get..
afraid of breakin dwn..
afraid of evyting. im such a coward.
im a bitch..
im a gd fer nth..
i lie on me bed thinkin YYYYY.. wd went rong. y like tht.. n whn i wanna ask.. i becum worse thn a jellyfish.. i feel like sum fool.. i feel like a desperate bitch. yesh tts wd i m..
desperate bitch!

dAnCiN iN mY nUdDy-pAnTs

2006-07-08T06:50:00.000+08:00

k fine so e keyboard flew... wtf.. i dunt care!!
continue doin this to me.. n im positively gona do sth abt it.. n i WILL. blah
done.. fulstop. its earli mornin.. 6 49 am.. even e sun is not out yt.. im yawnin awy at e pc screen.. m meetin irin at jurong.. we shd b at redhil at 8 30 plus.
wahha juz msged irin.. n shes like "wait .. gt a lil tym left..let me slp fin k.. whn u gona leev cal me" soo cute la dis gal..(another loong n lengthy yawn)
i dun haf tym to waste.. i haf to leev at 7 30 sharp to reach jurong at 8.. haiz. at tyms.. i repeat ONNI AT TYMS.. it reali sucks to live in yishun.. cos it always take almos an hr to go to plcs on e othr side of spore. plces i frequent which r.. so called in e othr syd of spore... tiong bahru.. queenstown... n nw redhil.. all at west side.. i gues.. THANK GOODNESS schs onni at bishan. 3 stops away. 20 min away.. i wud haf died if sch ws at simei... or even dover.. which is at e othr syd of spore.. k fine.. i like goin far away frm home.. bt sch?? evydae? n imagine if its aftr sw?? aiyo... i wil cum home. jz to shower. makan. straight away to boboland (meanin to say slp...gt this funni werds frm this bk me sista borrowed frm library...FURTHER CONFESSIONS OF GEORGIA NICOLSON...DIS BK. is hilarious.. wif french werds n so on...)(k its a kiddy bk... bt wel.. they say u noe. im young at heart... wahhaha) gorgey = gorgeous... nunga-nungas = basoomas = breasts... wahah soo funni.. whn u see ancient tribal werds.. n thrs evn a glossary at e bac fer ppl like me hu dun understan this kinda lang... Kiwi-a-gogo land = New Zealand.. k e bks called Dancing in my NUDDY - PANTS. author..louise rennison... er let me go on..
Mariachi-a-gogo land = Mexico.... Hamburger-a-gogo land = America n fer FRANCE.. = Frogs'-legs-a-gogo land.. ppl wun get ani of this.unles they read e bk.. wahhahaha.. n wel.. thrs lotsa "ful frontal snoggin"..wif rates on e "snoggin scale" wahhahaha n georgia. the main character. she calls her bf.. e SEX GOD.. n she calls her self.. e gf of e SEX GOD.. gosh.. wahahah e bks in a journal form wif timin n dates n so on.. hmm soo soo funni.. wahhahah wel.. its 7 0 6 am. n i gotta get my ass off me chair...

buh bye my gorgey lil chums (waahah)
lotsa love
muackz
JuLiE

~uNpReDiCtAbLeZ~

2006-07-07T13:21:00.000+08:00

waahhah.. see this happy face? all fer show onni la.. wahhaha.. im bored! woke up to an empty hse. feelin all empty insyd as wel..

ive got lotsa hatred to share.. wahahha..weeeeeeee...

spidey 3 trailer ish shoooooo hoooot!!!!! ;)

hmm.. fast n furious tokyo drift oso nice... hehehe

babu sent me e soundtrack.. kinda funni.. whahaha bit like traditional malay music at e bcgrnd.. whahahaha

sent him websms yest.. purposeli..

dunoe whthr gt ani effect or nt. i mean i do miss him

i think abt him ALOT. is it e same for him. "i feel terrible" my ass!

haiz.. waah i juz realise.. evytym i let sth go.. i cut me hair.. coincidence?? like a huge burden off e head?? i dunnoe.. amirs being nice todae.. aftr soo long.. wahhaha complain abt e 2 bibz.. thn chat nice nice.. gosh.. guys e most unpredictable creatures born on earth~

WAHAH MY PRI 5 MATHS STIL QUITE OK LER......heheh shasha asked me to help.. wahhaha.. nt bad.. :Per.. actuali.. nt so gd oso.. bt haiz. hu cares. im stil tinkin whthr shd retake me maths nxt yr.. ppl telin me.. canot combine cert... haiz. dun care la. i wanna faster get outtaf ite n go poly...

no phsycho is at home. im lyk sick to death.

i wan makan.. theres fish sambal n sum soupie concoction.. URGH! haiz..

m gona run to mac n grab sth edible!

JuLiE

mOoDlEsSmInDlEsShEaRtLeSs

2006-07-06T17:22:00.000+08:00

currentli.. reali MOODLESS.. no mood at all.. feelin sick to e brain. e pshychos.. reali drivin me psycho.. i haf no idea wd to do.. i wann .. i wannna.. i dunnoe wd la! im doin my OA all ovr again. fadzus flyin in n outtaf me head nw n thn.. sickenin it is. cos im sad. k hu cares whthr im sad. i dun cre meself either. i dunnoe wth im tokin abt.

stayed ovr at mehrus hse. big story. pap ask me to take taxi at 11 n cum home. dunow wds rong wif him. n all of e psychos jzu ask me.. "wads rong wif YOU" as usual. im e truoble kid, im e black sheep.. im e top of the problems. i wonder y they put up wif me. oh ya.. theres this thing called. LOVE u see.. haiz. wdeva la

k fine. of cos i love e psychos of me family. i love them to bits. in a fit of anger i tol her tht im gona run away. n i duwan to b treated like a maid in e goddamned hse. confinement! i hate it. i went thru hel. stayin hoem al dae doin hse werk. n wdeva . n so to her.. this is caled threatening.. wd in e whole blue werld can ido if she thinks like tht? ok so nvm. she canot keep it to her self. she has to tel evyting to her "baby" n thts my pap. k probabli i hurt her alot.. yesh i noe i did. bt it ws not on purpose. i ws angry! noe wds e meanin of FREAKIN ANGRY?

last nyt perima toked to me.. n wel she had a point. she had actuali.. alot of points. like.. e werds i used.. its all cos of ITE. thts cliche. ok.. i mean thts wd e psychos in me hse think. i wasnt like tht b4.. n oni after i went to ite.. n after mixin arnd wif e rong company ive bcum liek tht FREAKIN BULSHIT. hu do i eva mix arnd wif in sch.. i dun haf wd u cal close frens in sch.. all my close frens cum frm sec sch darlin!!!! e onni ppl i hang out wif at bishan.. zura.. shila..daya. shahida.. jeevi.. n no one else fer ematter of fact.. n im not even, close to them. i mean we al haf our own things.. we r jz togethr.. cos we r together i mean.. mebe im sayin it rongli. bt im tryin to say tht i m def not mixin wif e rong company. these gals are diamonds man! they r not rong company..

i wanna go out. i wan sum freedom in me life.. its me holz fer gdnes sakes. y askin me stupid fkin qns like "so wd if its ur holz. muz run wild isit" YESH WD IF I SAY YESH I WANNA RUN WILD!!!! i wanna do so many things.. wd e hel u pshychos tryin to do? k so.. i made a mistake n mebe u found out.. bt als done n ovr wif wd?? n y nt jzu tel me wd u found out?? y make me sick to e brain? Y YYYYYYYYYY?

evyone has wd they wan.. happenin lifestyle.. latest stuffs.. n me. i feel like smal child beggin fer a life.. hw long u gona treat me like thi.. liek a freakin smal gal hu doesnt noe niting abt e freakin werld? i jz wanna see.. u say u trust.. bt wth? bulshit!

no muackz. no nth

JuLiE

if i aint got u babay!! crazy abt AK nw!

2006-07-05T15:15:00.000+08:00

wahhaha contradictions.. holz are here.. nvr bn soo bored sia! wif nth to do at all!!! foooyooo!
hmm goin to mehrus hse wahha.. myt.. meet creammu... wahhaha he lives very near leh! wahhahaha... hopefulli .. cos hes pandis haven fin assignment.. whahahahah his chi galpals bulyin him wahhahah.. hes sooo funni!

stayin at home.. doin al e hse werk.. flippin chanels on e tv.. watchin old movies.. hoggin on e pc.. chattin.. websmsin.. bloggin.. lookin at freaky pplz profiles. goin goo goo gaga ovr hotties.. hoggin on e fone wif anyone hus not tied up wif sch or wdsoeva... THIS is hw i speny my dae yest.. gosh.. i need . i seriousli NEED TO GET A LIFE!!!

nw it feels like.. sch daes are better thn holz.. wahah aiya. aftr a wihle whn i start goin out. i wsh e holz wun end at all.. plus ive gt to study e goddamned bzf... n do up OA. haiz.

ws tinkin of mic studio.. farah.. man she can sing!! n CAN SING BEAUTIFULLY!!! daya oso.. daya n farah.. they sing wif their own style.. so.. soo wonderful.. whahaha nice noe! wahahah ... nice.. veri nice.. wel.. mic studios n lotsa fun.. hmmmm

k wanna go liao.. wan get ready.. n get outtaf e hse!! whahahahah

lotsa love
muackz
JuLiE

2006-07-04T11:17:00.000+08:00

waaah.. juz woke up.. me cut me hair yest.. at jean yip!! yippie! wahhaha n mum paid arnd 200 bugs fer treatment stuffs too.. wahh.. muz pay bac lorhz.. so one kind she spend so much.. hmm must return.. tokin wif creammu.. nw weeeeeee......... {11 22 am}......done!! {12 05 pm}

all those u dont crave for attention, they show u
whose u want attention, they ignore u (habibis werds)

after cut hair.. jln jln at tiong bahru.. ws thinkin abt saiful. wahha.. his plz thr wd.. hmm bt didnt see him.. saw NOORSHAHAN uztazah... gosh! wif nafeesah.. n nazirah.. hmm i jz cut me hair.. they r e first ppl to see ! hmm aft tht we went to .. BUKIT MEHRA.. to makan.. gosh.. i hate tht plz.. gives me all e jitters n shudders n wdever u cal it ..

heard he gt a bike.. frm saiful. ah.. nt bothered lor.. bt wel walkin arnd thr.. brings bac memories.. bad ones.. yikes.. nt gd at all noe.. 2003 wahaha 3 yrs ago. huh.. wdeva

thn in e bus.. all e way tinkin abt fadzu.. its a bit like wad u cal..hunger pangs.. this one is called "missin him " pangs.. like i juz miss him.. k im supposed to hav bn wel ovr him by end of las wk. bt wel. u noe once in a blue moon.. u juz tink. abt things .. n wish hw things wud haf .. u noe.. i dunnoe la... i ws smilin fer a while.. thn no more smiles.. sad.. bt nvr cry... im way ovr cryin la..

bt qns.. ws tokin to creamu jz now aite? thn wdever creamu sayin.. is lyk wd i go thru lor.. like theres so much of clarification to b done.. so mani things to tok abt.. to ask. qns.. bt whn e persons ryt infrnt.. its soo dif to tok.. like u tink.. "y spoil e moment.. y bring this up.. n cause more probs" haiz.. at nyt..

at nyt.. aftr greys anatomy, ws tokin to myself.. juz liek tht.. gone nuts i guess.. tinkin of whtr i shd cal him. y shd i.. is he tinkin of me.. do i mean anitin at all.. nw? like... y cal him n he wun pic up.. thn i regret..or if he pic up oso.. i wil regret.. n i did niwae. he ws slpin. like. thn wd happen to those tym whn he says.. cal nitym i wil tok to u.. nitin fer me chellam n all tht crap.. haiz... dunoe la..

wahahaha.. wel.. wds done is done. gone is gone.. nths gone la.. bt wel.. dunnoe/.. al those happi tyms wun cum bac.. they juz wont. the hugs.. wun cum bac. those werds. r onni werds.. wahahha... im ful of contradictions niwae. so now im sad. next. im goin weeeeeeeeeee

wdeva. sick life tis is.

muackz
JuLiE

im goin to run away...

2006-06-30T09:46:00.000+08:00

todae. june 30. i tink its kruls b dae. nt reali bothered.im nw ful of hatred. hatred. hatred. loads of it. they are tryin to keep me caged in tis damned hse. i do e hse werk. i do my sch werk. i jzu wanna go out. 3 wks of misery is ahead of me.. bt they cal it e holz. they shd juz continue doin this shit to me n i m gona run away. reali.. i hate this.. im like freakin 17 .. wtf.. i canot even go to e library.. wd? im a smal kid isit? i dn see a reason in needin to tel u whr i go wd i do wd tym il b bac n Y IM GOIN... hw stupid cn ur qns gt? juz let me go.. stop treatin me like asmal kid hu doesnt noe niting in this freakin werld.. i hate this.. i sososossooooooooooo hate it! wel.. anger onni lat fer a while..

i'l probabli go home.. n zone out.. on e com.. til e psychos cum home.. ppl in my hse are officialli called PSYCHOS!! real psychos.. hu dun haf a life.. ive done me holz assignmets.. i probabli go makan after sch wif clsmates.. thn b home by 1 plus.. i tink.. or later.. or earlier.. thn go home.. thn thn.. no bloody movie to watch oso... no book to read oso.. im considerin droppin by at yishunlibrary.. which is e werlds most stupidest library in e werld..
whn im reali loneli.. n i need to get outtaf e hse.. they make me stay ni.. whn i go oout fer reasons.. they let me.. i dun understan these psychos..

its like gona b 10... schis gona fun at 11... i wanna jzu GET OUT OF THIS WERLD..
wanan watch superman.. mebe wif creammu.. wan go play badminton. wan go mic studio.. wan go clubbin.. wan meet fadhie. wan go jlnjln.. wan to do soo mani freakin things in this freakin 3 wks. bt wth i muz b at hoem 24 /7.. be a freakin maid.. im like boilin insyd.. atleats i do all ehse werk n jz stay at home THN FREAKIN PAY ME LA! tht oso dun do.. jzu stay at hoem.. stay at hoem stay at home. n do wad???? becum like mummy isit? tink of me life n stare at e ceiling??? plzla i gt better thigns to do.. im supposedtpo enjoy this 3 wks.. so tht i can b fresh n prepared fersch n concentrate on ca2... i haf no idea y these phsychos are doin tis to me.. i jzu haf no freakin idea..

2006.. love.hate.emo.insane.

*bra n towel*cam whorin*stuff i dun like*ash u make me sick*

2 things. one rocked. another wil rock soon. rock me off sum buildin i tink.

*ash is in e head*

*2 guys & a gal*

poem. wekend highlights. mistake?? or juz fer fun?

boohoo

*nice and tormenting part 3*

*nice yet tormentin part 2*

*nice yet tormenting*sporting afrique*24*

*ash*raya*bib*

*20th october 2006*sth special fer my darlinz!*candyshop rockz!*

*julz* men & women*boo*

*julz is bac bloggin*raya*social circle*

*bubbles in the blurry october sky*

*pissed wif curlz*soo into taleban*weeeeeeee*

*aynul nazminah*juliez one n onli*i love u*

*PA*SI*sam*

*oa due tml*moodless*feelin blueish*

*kank*sam*crush zone*love*life*

*teachersdae*gold digger*hotness*happiness*

*mondae reds*micstudio*3e3 ' 04*4e3 ' 05*

*god has punished me shit*

*dead babies*innocent dead babies*

*great life*great frens*whrs e light??*

*i love u minzi*miss u lots*

*moodswing*mapling*mic studio*

*chappati*en lai*fahmy*weddin consultancy*

*sex*abortion*foetus* urgh*

i cried..dunnoe y.. boo*huggies lots lots*