was trustin too much my fault?

Monday, December 18, 2006

k i juz fuckin always dun get
wad i wan. its alwys like tt
i noe. im childish
wel i wanna b childish
let me b ok.
my blog aniwae.. nt happi
thn juz dun read. GET LOST
fer all i care.
i hate it
the things i go thru
the fuckin truths bhynd evytin
e fact tt i let myself into all this shit
it juz it juz MAKES ME WANNA SCREAM.
k .. end of anger . duwanna tink of it animore
thinkin of elmo. n fadhie. irin n shashir.
yeah feel better
todae. me.. irin shah n thahirah
did sum whacky stuf..
was rainin hard [m stayin at queenstown.. thahirahs plc]
4 of us juz decided to go dwn get wet
had friggin lotsa fun
gettin wet in e rain..
dancin singin.. jumpin all arnd
to feel e icy cold water
alll over ur body..DAMN IT WAS GUUD!
soaked.. drenched.. frm top to bottom.
we were havin e tym of our lives.
didnt care hu was goin by..
aniwaes e plave very ulu..
haha thn cum home. 4 gals.
walkin arnd in bras n towels.
me n irin cam whorin.
*after rain cam whorin*
soo funni.
pornstars in e makin. whahaha
thn all bathed changed went to
tiong bahru fer dinner
n headed off to raffles.
n gues wd. my fkin slippers.. had to break again
so me .. holdin onto irins arm.. holdin an umbrella..
was walkin towards esplanade.. in e rain..
WIF NO SHOES ON BAYBEH!!.
juz like tt.. i didnt care abt aniting la
was headin towards marina to buy slippers aniwae
bt me n irin.. heheh singin songs.. in e rain..
walkin slowli.. was nice.
two of us singin e same songs
bt fer totali diff reasons.
finali. frm esplanade to marina...
marina square. gt slippers at elle active.. hehe
n tts whn IRIN started cryin!
gosh this gal scared e fk outtaf me.
this is wd happens whn u get deep into relationships.
u put in ur evrytin juz to find out tt its not worth it..
or mebe u dun put in aniting.. n later regret n lose e opportunity.
wel. all relationships haf their WDEVERS.
so they fought n she cried n cried.
n thn he msged apologisin.
he wans e relationship goin..[nice..]
whn she was cryin .. i tol her
if all u do n he does is not bringin e relationship aniwhr
thn myt as well let itgo
its not as if thr no more guys aniwhr animore.
n oops. tt was a bad thing to say.
yeah . i noe. bt hell.. I M RYT ARENT I?
bt the thing.. is.. wel.. sashir wans e relationship
he loves her. n hes apologisin. fer wds happened
nt evry fker out thr does tt..
ok fine...i meant not evry GUY does tt.. does he?
its wd u call EGO? or wel. playin arnd[naabae playboi]
so wel.. we were thn at marina beach til we caught e last bus home
in e bus i was like teli nirin
shes lucki to haf sashir. she shudnt let aniting affect her too much
life wil b guud fer her n him
like...she can say.. she loves him n he loves her too.
well.. tts whr i sit n think of e guys ive met i my life
nt one has e MATURITY of sashir's..
even tho sashirs much younger thn ani of them
rather thn praisin sashir.. [bt kudos to him] im degradin e othr fkers.
all of them had e ultimae male ego cheebai thingie,
n wel they were very very very gud at
makin use of things whn its at their advantage,
im not namin ani one of them.. dun feel a need to.
if they read my blog. they noe hu they are
n even thn i dun gif a fk
whn confronted.. abt their mistakes.
they juz take off... let go... all of em
they dun even haf e decency to say SORRYn explain
like wd shashir did.
see wd i mean. i dunoe
ijzu feel like a piece of shit now
bt i had lotsa fun fer e past 2 daes
spent lotsa tym wif my lovables.
hmmmmm
havin holz. duwanna stray too far
frm wd ive always bn..
MYSELF
muackz
JuLiE

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