Wednesday, December 06, 2006
im selfish
i wan him to tok to ME
i wan him to flirt wif ME
i wan him to go crazy over ME
i wan his tots to revolve arnd ME.so whn all i ever wan him to do has e werd ME in it.thn e selfish bitch in me has juz jumped out.n dun ask me yim starin at his picsim luvin his eyes
i sooo juz wanna hear his voicekinda crazy or not [meanin his voice]moodless or not. [his mood]heart is goin all jumpity jumpity
at cls. whn im engrossed in werk.out of nowhr he appears in mindn i immediateli go "julie.. i said dunt. DUNT think of him.
uve gt werk to do" i chid myself inwardlybt stil end up day dreamin aniwae.e lyrics frm "a girl like me - rihanna"runs thru my head every nw n thn"possibility.. got me tripping.
thinkin of wd cud be.. btw u n me"had this feelin b4. bn thr. felt it all.went thru all e hurt as wellso thn y m i walkin dwn e same drain again?n wds more im goin dwn e same drain wid sum kindafwierd inward determination. ?? y? *headpain*its like. ok lets daydream. yeah i noe it wun happenbt hey daydreamin is fun. so yeah lets haf funn thn later juz let go of evyting like nths happened b4wel tts soo totali not julie. not her style. thn y. ask GOD.
he said sth. i reacted like it was nth. has my heart turned into steel??or m i doin it all in purpose. diggin my own grave bt thinkin tt i wun die aniway. not any tym soon tt is.so its all a funni gamewith a funni guyso lets haf funn whrever it endslet it be n tata buhbye.sounds sick to meno muackz tonytJuLiE
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