Sunday, August 06, 2006
ok fine.
i dunnoe y things turned out to b like tt..
er. actuali of cos i do.
n its not MY FAULT!
so dun stare at me e way u did last nyt
sumone tol me tt mebe u were guilty.
were u? do u feel aniting near tt?
i half expected u to turn up yest
bt i didnt expect myself to b such
an emotional wreck.
u juz totali avoided me. ryt under my nose~!
so wad ws tt all abt?
muz haf walked past me a thousand tyms.
wif ur face turned e othr way
u noe how much tt hurt
i felt as if i asked fer it
like i made a huge mistake
whn all i did. was to call u cos i
freeakin missed u dammit!
u are my fren. was it such a mistake to call u????
n so u had to diss me off ... fer her..
n thn cal me bac 10 min later
to apologise..
whn e damage was already done.
juz a smal acknowledgement
wudnt haf hurt u so much ryt?
i guess i lost e fren i knew.
e one i cud connect wif..
e one hu knew me in n out..
e one hu said tt i wud nvr get att..
without lettin u noe.
"my julie wil nvr do tt"
wd happened to "my julie" yest?
ws she invisible.?
ok so u stared.. y
i didnt now hw to react to u..
emotional wreck.
n thn e song.
i gues mebe u rmbred
tellin me tt e song wud def suit my voice.
n u played it thrice.
was it juz cos u liked e song..
or cos u wanted it to mean sth?
i missed evrything abt u..
bt thr was no happiness whn i saw u yest
y not? cos u made it tt way darlz
u. u made it tt way
no doubt im hurt deep dwn
bt seriousli i hope i reali meant sth to u..
whn we were gd frens...
cos u stil mean alot to me..
even tho things are like
way beyond wdeva!
suddenli.. im rmbrin wd u said.
"eh wif me tt wud nvr happen"
u said tt
whn i tol u tt its usuali my
"frens" leevin me
goin MIA n im left alone
you noe.
ive let out my frustration.
yet i stil dunt feel gd
ur face is stil llingerin in my head.
ur eyes.. whn u were starin.
mebe u were not even starin at me.
i dunnoe dunoe dunoe!!
guez u lead a diff life now..
n julies def nt part of it..
bt juz in case u dont noe
u are always a part of my life
n i mean it
always
muackz
JuLiE
<3 Sunday, August 06, 2006;
