was trustin too much my fault?

Friday, August 11, 2006

k i feel like shit..
i cried todae..
was at wdlnds.
waitin fer fadhie
n hu shd i seee.
fadzil..
nvr in my life did i tink i wud see him
n thr i was standin.. lookin into his eyes.
i gues i was searchin fer sth in em.
bt i saw nth at all.. nth nth nth...
n all i cud think of was to hug him immediateli.
he asked whthr i msged him
n said tt he was werkin.
i cudnt much say aniting.
kinda toungue-tied..
n my heart felt heavy,... damn heavy...
n thn i asked whthr he ws goin home..
n he was like ya..
n he asked wd i was doin thr..
i tol him tt i was waitin fer a fren..
n thn he was like lookin at me.. wif a queationin gesture..
n i dunnoe. i juz looked at his eyes.
to tink i ws thknin of him n tokin abt him e nyt b4
n to see him todae.
n he left.. i watched his retreatin bac all e while
he didnt even turn bhyd.
i wanted to ask him. hw cum he gt so bz n he forgot me b dae.
bt i was.. toungue-tied
n thn.. thr i was standin alone.. waitin er fadhie to cum..
in my mind.. "whr e fk is she. i need her now .. whr ish fadhie whr ish fadhie"
n thn she appeears. i walk soo fast to her.. n wif teary eyes. i was lyk . i jz saw fadzil..
n she was lyk.."aiya dun bother abt him la..eh dun cry ah..meet me canot cry ok"
n thn b4 i noe it.. im cryin... like i lost my life or sth
n thn in e middle of causeway .. in btw kfc n e cake shop..
i asked fadhie.."can u hug me?"
n i hugged her fer long..
wif tears dwn my cheeks.
wtf..
fadhie was lyk.. "wad a great welcome i get..
i cum to meet my best fren aftr a wk,. n e first thing she does.. is to cry"
i mean she was tyrin to make me laff.. fahdie ish a clown so i always end up laffin
even if i was cryin all e while b4
hmmmmmm...
haiz
n thn we ate at mac.. n i started eatin me fries soo fast.. lyk practicali gobbled me food as fast as possible..
haish i dunnoe la. i dunoe dunoe dunoeeeeee
wel enuf of e sad part..
aftr tt fadhie n i walked arnd..
thn at metro i took 2 black tops i liked..
n tried em on..
wahahah both oso ponna low neck..
n fadhie was lyk..
"sexxy!!" haha she like me waist whahaha *shy* to think tt sumoen actuali tot tt i had a nice waist.. of all things... whahahhaha
whahha..
aiya im fat la..
big fat tuummy..
get tt out n i haf no problem wearin aniting like tt..
haiz.. wait lor.. soon .. soon..
mus fast lor..[ramadan cumin niwae]
thn i haven even pay bac yet..
tsktsk..
thn was telin fadhie abt greys anatomy..
e gal who had orgasms out of no whr..
we were laffin like crazee...
thn tok abt makin out..
whahah..
wif fadhie.. sure we tok abt makin out..
whahahahha
nonsense.. whahhaha
bt funni wd..
fadhie.. i love u soo much
thnks fer liek toleratin me.. n my emo emo self.
julie n cryin always gd frens.. which is NVR GOOD!
wdeva la. now goin to rifah's hse to get "fanaa"
dvd.. thn cum home n watch..
bye bye one n all.
muackz
JuLiE

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