Tuesday, July 04, 2006
waaah.. juz woke up.. me cut me hair yest.. at jean yip!! yippie! wahhaha n mum paid arnd 200 bugs fer treatment stuffs too.. wahh.. muz pay bac lorhz.. so one kind she spend so much.. hmm must return.. tokin wif creammu.. nw weeeeeee......... {11 22 am}......done!! {12 05 pm}
all those u dont crave for attention, they show u
whose u want attention, they ignore u (habibis werds)
after cut hair.. jln jln at tiong bahru.. ws thinkin abt saiful. wahha.. his plz thr wd.. hmm bt didnt see him.. saw NOORSHAHAN uztazah... gosh! wif nafeesah.. n nazirah.. hmm i jz cut me hair.. they r e first ppl to see ! hmm aft tht we went to .. BUKIT MEHRA.. to makan.. gosh.. i hate tht plz.. gives me all e jitters n shudders n wdever u cal it ..heard he gt a bike.. frm saiful. ah.. nt bothered lor.. bt wel walkin arnd thr.. brings bac memories.. bad ones.. yikes.. nt gd at all noe.. 2003 wahaha 3 yrs ago. huh.. wdevathn in e bus.. all e way tinkin abt fadzu.. its a bit like wad u cal..hunger pangs.. this one is called "missin him " pangs.. like i juz miss him.. k im supposed to hav bn wel ovr him by end of las wk. bt wel. u noe once in a blue moon.. u juz tink. abt things .. n wish hw things wud haf .. u noe.. i dunnoe la... i ws smilin fer a while.. thn no more smiles.. sad.. bt nvr cry... im way ovr cryin la..bt qns.. ws tokin to creamu jz now aite? thn wdever creamu sayin.. is lyk wd i go thru lor.. like theres so much of clarification to b done.. so mani things to tok abt.. to ask. qns.. bt whn e persons ryt infrnt.. its soo dif to tok.. like u tink.. "y spoil e moment.. y bring this up.. n cause more probs" haiz.. at nyt.. at nyt.. aftr greys anatomy, ws tokin to myself.. juz liek tht.. gone nuts i guess.. tinkin of whtr i shd cal him. y shd i.. is he tinkin of me.. do i mean anitin at all.. nw? like... y cal him n he wun pic up.. thn i regret..or if he pic up oso.. i wil regret.. n i did niwae. he ws slpin. like. thn wd happen to those tym whn he says.. cal nitym i wil tok to u.. nitin fer me chellam n all tht crap.. haiz... dunoe la.. wahahaha.. wel.. wds done is done. gone is gone.. nths gone la.. bt wel.. dunnoe/.. al those happi tyms wun cum bac.. they juz wont. the hugs.. wun cum bac. those werds. r onni werds.. wahahha... im ful of contradictions niwae. so now im sad. next. im goin weeeeeeeeeee wdeva. sick life tis is. muackzJuLiE
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