k i juz fuckin always dun get
wad i wan. its alwys like tt
i noe. im childish
wel i wanna b childish
let me b ok.
my blog aniwae.. nt happi
thn juz dun read. GET LOST
fer all i care.
i hate it
the things i go thru
the fuckin truths bhynd evytin
e fact tt i let myself into all this shit
it juz it juz MAKES ME WANNA SCREAM.
k .. end of anger . duwanna tink of it animore
thinkin of elmo. n fadhie. irin n shashir.
yeah feel better
todae. me.. irin shah n thahirah
did sum whacky stuf..
was rainin hard [m stayin at queenstown.. thahirahs plc]
4 of us juz decided to go dwn get wet
had friggin lotsa fun
gettin wet in e rain..
dancin singin.. jumpin all arnd
to feel e icy cold water
alll over ur body..DAMN IT WAS GUUD!
soaked.. drenched.. frm top to bottom.
we were havin e tym of our lives.
didnt care hu was goin by..
aniwaes e plave very ulu..
haha thn cum home. 4 gals.
walkin arnd in bras n towels.
me n irin cam whorin.
*after rain cam whorin*
soo funni.
pornstars in e makin. whahaha
thn all bathed changed went to
tiong bahru fer dinner
n headed off to raffles.
n gues wd. my fkin slippers.. had to break again
so me .. holdin onto irins arm.. holdin an umbrella..
was walkin towards esplanade.. in e rain..
WIF NO SHOES ON BAYBEH!!.
juz like tt.. i didnt care abt aniting la
was headin towards marina to buy slippers aniwae
bt me n irin.. heheh singin songs.. in e rain..
walkin slowli.. was nice.
two of us singin e same songs
bt fer totali diff reasons.
finali. frm esplanade to marina...
marina square. gt slippers at elle active.. hehe
n tts whn IRIN started cryin!
gosh this gal scared e fk outtaf me.
this is wd happens whn u get deep into relationships.
u put in ur evrytin juz to find out tt its not worth it..
or mebe u dun put in aniting.. n later regret n lose e opportunity.
wel. all relationships haf their WDEVERS.
so they fought n she cried n cried.
n thn he msged apologisin.
he wans e relationship goin..[nice..]
whn she was cryin .. i tol her
if all u do n he does is not bringin e relationship aniwhr
thn myt as well let itgo
its not as if thr no more guys aniwhr animore.
n oops. tt was a bad thing to say.
yeah . i noe. bt hell.. I M RYT ARENT I?
bt the thing.. is.. wel.. sashir wans e relationship
he loves her. n hes apologisin. fer wds happened
nt evry fker out thr does tt..
ok fine...i meant not evry GUY does tt.. does he?
its wd u call EGO? or wel. playin arnd[naabae playboi]
so wel.. we were thn at marina beach til we caught e last bus home
in e bus i was like teli nirin
shes lucki to haf sashir. she shudnt let aniting affect her too much
life wil b guud fer her n him
like...she can say.. she loves him n he loves her too.
well.. tts whr i sit n think of e guys ive met i my life
nt one has e MATURITY of sashir's..
even tho sashirs much younger thn ani of them
rather thn praisin sashir.. [bt kudos to him] im degradin e othr fkers.
all of them had e ultimae male ego cheebai thingie,
n wel they were very very very gud at
makin use of things whn its at their advantage,
im not namin ani one of them.. dun feel a need to.
if they read my blog. they noe hu they are
n even thn i dun gif a fk
whn confronted.. abt their mistakes.
they juz take off... let go... all of em
they dun even haf e decency to say SORRYn explain
like wd shashir did.
see wd i mean. i dunoe
ijzu feel like a piece of shit now
bt i had lotsa fun fer e past 2 daes
spent lotsa tym wif my lovables.
hmmmmm
havin holz. duwanna stray too far
frm wd ive always bn..
MYSELF
muackz
JuLiE

heya.
two things.
jack & e beansprout
was AWESOME!!!
my first time watchin a
W!LD RICE PRODUCTION
it was fantabulous!!
i soo juz can imagine myself actin like tt
infrnt of 600 over audience.
it was simply fantastic.
thanks to mic studio. [thnk gdness i joined this cca]
i reali wanna improve myself
in actin. its reali. an inspiration almos.
watchin all those actors.. sebastian. ivan heng.
wow. BIG NAMES noe. hmmm
ther lotsa other musicals/panto wdever u cal it cumin up.
frm TOY FACTORY as well..
n hosen leong's Multiple Personality Disorder!
pantomimes rock la. simple as tt.
hehehe. hmmm. simply fantastic.
this feelin insyd. its juz nicey wicey wice~ hehe
if daddy can pay. i sure wanna catch everyting! ;)
[tt sounds like *oh-so-typical-blonde-bimbo* URGH]
hmmm. lotsa exposure for me. hehe :P:P
yeah. tts one. n now. 2.
toked to habibi. afta quite sum tym.
and he being my bro. gave sum sound advice
[haha i oso gif him alot of advice noe:P]
said i shd forget evyting n juz STUDY HARD
helloe bt i DO STUDY HARD OK.
ive bn doin very well in sch
all my modules A / B except acf la.haish.
wadever la k? i do study hard ok
i'l juz do wd my heart tells me to ok
i'l do wd i feel is ryt.
wd i NOE is ryt.
so ryt now. it means ive to
concentrate on wads impt.
die my way thru e last week of sch!
n thn my hozl wil cum. n wdever has to
happen. juz let it happen. i'l see wd i can do
whn it happens. like wd haf i got to lose ryt??
actuali. i always lose sth. bt this tym, i wun let it affect me.
simple? can? manageable?? SURE! its julie we're tokin to here~!
muackz
JuLiE

im selfish
i wan him to tok to ME
i wan him to flirt wif ME
i wan him to go crazy over ME
i wan his tots to revolve arnd ME.
so whn all i ever wan him to do
has e werd ME in it.
thn e selfish bitch in me has juz jumped out.
n dun ask me y
im starin at his pics
im luvin his eyes
i sooo juz wanna hear his voice
kinda crazy or not [meanin his voice]
moodless or not. [his mood]
heart is goin all jumpity jumpity
at cls. whn im engrossed in werk.
out of nowhr he appears in mind
n i immediateli go
"julie.. i said dunt. DUNT think of him.
uve gt werk to do" i chid myself inwardly
bt stil end up day dreamin aniwae.
e lyrics frm "a girl like me - rihanna"
runs thru my head every nw n thn
"possibility.. got me tripping.
thinkin of wd cud be.. btw u n me"
had this feelin b4. bn thr. felt it all.
went thru all e hurt as well
so thn y m i walkin dwn e same drain again?
n wds more im goin dwn e same drain wid sum kindaf
wierd inward determination. ?? y? *headpain*
its like. ok lets daydream. yeah i noe it wun happen
bt hey daydreamin is fun. so yeah lets haf fun
n thn later juz let go of evyting like nths happened b4
wel tts soo totali not julie. not her style. thn y. ask GOD.
he said sth. i reacted like it was nth.
has my heart turned into steel??
or m i doin it all in purpose.
diggin my own grave bt
thinkin tt i wun die aniway.
not any tym soon tt is.
so its all a funni game
with a funni guy
so lets haf fun
n whrever it ends
let it be n tata buhbye.
sounds sick to me
no muackz tonyt
JuLiE

ive gt 3 ppl in my mind
2 guys and a gal.
ash..fred..naziee.
ash said he had exam todae..
wonder how it went..
fred wil b cumin soon
wonder wds gona happen
nazie n i went shoppin together
nvr had so much fun in a long tym
we both got tops frm this fashion
*weeeeeeee*
we met at bishan.
n her new ipod. is SOOO FCUKIN COOL!
tiniest ipod ive ever seen. bt. wel. shiok la!
had fn.. makan.. thn tryin out ani new top which
caught our eye. haha. a fun girls day out.
heheeh shes goin fer her holz. this fri.
while me... ive got e JACK & THE BEANSPROUT
musical to attend on fridae!! *weeeeeeeee*
at national library audi. n gues wd!
my papa is in charge of all e lighting thingies!!
hahaah im soooo oh soooo proud! hehehehe
wel.. me gona wear e top i bought on fri..
seems suitable enuff.. all black on fri nyt.
heheheh. sleeek. wel wel wel..
enuff of all tht. i need to go to SCH
juz a week more.. n i'l b freeeeeee
cant wait. gt movies to catch wif creammu..
outing to go wif minzi nazie baizura
wudnt mind meetin ash as well. [wd m i tokin?!?!?]
haha
muackz
JuLiE

took this poem from sumones blog
thought it was awesome.
a poem, written by an African kid :

When I born, I Black.
When I grow up, I Black.
When I go in Sun, I Black.
When I scared, I Black.
When I sick, I Black.
And when I die, I still black.

And you White fella,
When you born, you Pink.
When you grow up, you White.
When you go in Sun, you Red.
When you cold, you Blue.
When you scared, you Yellow.
When you sick, you Green.
And when you die, you Gray.
And you call me coloured.

wow! wow! wow! this is wd u call
dwnryt slammin ryt on e face,
tamilan wil say "ponna jack la!"
hahaha..
juz toked to ash
hes sooooo funni
he juz made me laff n laff n lafffffff
n so did minzi..
shes another crazee one!!
poor thing my darlin fell dwn..
n her bro. originali "thosai maavu"
now officiali known as Blur Sotong!!
juz stood thr instead of carryin her up.
ketta shocked. hahahahaah
minzi n her funni ways of describin..
"he was starin at me as if i juz
graduatated frm MDIS wif a diploma"
whahahahhahah
hmmmm.
over e weekend i went shoppin wif minzi
bought myself shoes. converse!! hahakz.
n yeah went to watch DHOOM2
wif creammu!! MR. A. U ROCK MAN!!
hehhehehe n yeah gt a reply at last!!!!!
*weeeeeeeee* hahaha
hmmm i dunnoe wd to say abt wad ive done
tts all i can say.
minzi if ive upset u
i dun wanna say sorry
cos ive upset myself as well
*hugz*
muackz
JuLiE

aiyo kadevulae!!!
so mani things
spinnin
so mani twists n turns
i suddenli
dunnoe how long im gona last
thinkin too much
worryin too much
all much much
we aim for sth to happen
it all starts well
in btw cums e twistin n turnin
n holla.. b4 we noe it..
e endin is totali unexpected!
bt oh wel.
wds life without complications eh?
u juz gotta accept it n move on!
haish.

hmmmm
past few daes bn kinda eventful.
haha watched FLUSHED AWAY
wif fadhie!! damn funni..
e dae went great
cos i met up wif her..
we jln jln b4 e movie
at wdlnds.
saw tis playgrnd..
wif swings
heheheh
we ran for em.
thn swingin away..
relivin our childhood daes.
hehe it was guud
a dae out wif fadhie. juz her n me
n our craziness...
movie was funni..
n shes already "booked" me
fer Happy feet and Open Season
hehhehehe
*e booty is in e booty*
n abt fadhie ..
she was like
"dae. my best fren hasnt met my bf da!"
hehe wel fadhie. "guud things take time to happen"
tt phrase sooo goes fer me as well.
not na-ah. whn julz is impatient. shes VERY IMPATIENT!
boohooo hoo hooo hooooooooooooooooo
i saw sumone at e mrt station..
n i sent another email.
its bn a week n a dae since he left
me dunoe wd to say
bt missing sumone suddenli sucks big tym
its again wd i call
"nice yet tormentin"
which also means not nice la
or wdever la.
tml im goin fer my leadership camp
at batam n im not even excited
like u noe e kinda feelin u get ..
e kind I usuali get whn im goin out of spore fer trips n so on
its juz NOT THR!!! im frequentli moody [not pms]
i feel like a piece of chocolate cake which has bn bitten all over
n thrs onni a lil bit left of me stil juz waitin to b bitten again..
err... k i dunoe how relevant tt expression is
bt wtf man! i dun care?!?!?!?!
n HEY! MY NEW NEPHEW HAS BEEN BORN ALREADY
bdae - 21/11/06 time 9 pm
hes juz soooo damn e cute lor!!!!!
yest i carried him.. soo soft to touch
n his eyes... sooo cute!!
hahaks *weeeeeeeee* me loves babies*
i hope they wil name him Muhammad Fawwaz Ihsan
it sounds soooooooooo... er... strong. n wel. UNIQUE
wel it means a successful person hu has e highest level of Iman.
guud wd??? heheheh hope e uztads all agreee..
hmm.. so well.. hes e newest member in my already huge family..
[my papa's gt 9 siblings.so means i gt a whole lottsa cuzzins..
n e elder ones oready married n hehe ive gt like
includin e newest, ive gt 4 NEPHEWS] hehehheh
hmm babies. nice.. cute..
well now im off to sch
*moodless to e max*
muackz
JuLiE

fridae todae...
at sch now
listenin to e song
"nadpu illai kadithem"
its totali addictive..
it made me cry..
email has been sent.
didnt noe abt wd to say
bt wel. juz did la.
see whthr i'l get a reply
hmmm
tol zura n shila abt
mickey n his gf
muz haf seen zuras face
wahhaha
she damn cute la..
heheheheh
evryting oso "best nya!!"
ya la best la.. bt stil.
things are very disturbin..
julies nt concentratin
in wds impt ready
tts a big booboo
my exams, presentations, proj
are all due very soon
i gotta catch up ready...
bt thrs this pull in my heart
like. like i dunoe.
like juz wanna sit dwn
n think my life away
tho its not a nice feelin insyd
i stil wanna juz do it.
like u noe.. wds tt werd..
er.. likin to inflict pain onto oneself
masochistic. yeah. read tt werd
frm this passage durin o lvl daes.
bt now i go find in wikipedia,,
it says..sth to do wif sexual fantasies!!
wtf sia!!! nonono
i meant suffering. aiya wdever not la.
haish.. its not like i luv inflictin pain
onto myself [def not via sexual fantisies! EEEEW]
its juz i wanna sit n think n think whole dae
n feel bad. [self sympathy??? mebe..]
bt haiya. later it wil b bac to square one
i'l b panickin over my thousand tons of werk,
as usual. n thn at e bac of my mind
thr'll stil b this tot.
this sad tot. which i usuali try my best
to push outta my head..
wif no luck.
at all.
wel.
yeah.
k. dah
muackz
JuLiE

he appeared on sundae.
n hes leevin tonyt
met him at khatib
chit chat til cityhall
met later at yio chu kang
thn e next dae.
n yest
n now todae
i dun feel as crazee
as i felt e nyt b4 last nyt
not as confused
feel quite ok.. reali.
hes leevin tonyt n cumin bac in january
tts 2 mths. wif sch.. tym wil fly.
n thn wd? tts wd i dunoe.
everythings soo new n happenin SOO FAST
[and of cos as usual. im thinkin too much]
i wonder whr its all gona end.
n as said b4. [this tym nth to do wif e previous entry]
im in a situation ive nvr bn in b4
n i nvr ever bleeved sth like tt wud happen.
n im not as happy as i was in e previous entry.
as in im not IM NOT keepin ani hopes.
let alone keepin them high.
here i am. whr i canot .. or more like
do not noe whther i shd trust anione.
whether i shd follow my instincts
whthr i shd juz see whr it all ends
besyds it all looks very VERY far fetched to me.
bt its al abt me isnt it. me n my decisions.
[n i was tol tt im too young to make decisions nw
n im under sumone elses care. bt thr cums a tym whn i'l b independent
n no one can stop me frm makin my decisions ;)]
n i duwanna let go.
i like e frenship its totali new.
totali intricate. delicate. new.
sum are excited for me
some think its way styyle!!
they think things can go wel
bt others .. they think im askin for trouble
they think im being taken advantage of
[or more like.. wil b taken advantage of]
bt all of em are concerned for me
n me? wd do I think? wel. this is wd i think.
LET TYM TEL! I DUWANNA THINK ANIMORE LA DAE
I'L BECUM 86 AT E AGE OF 17. WHITE HAIR WIL GROW ON MY HEAD
IF I THINK ANI MORE THN WD IM THINKIN ALREADY!!!!!!!!!!
*nice yet tormenting*
muackz
JuLiE

manjel veyil maalei ithe...
mella mella iruluthae...
palichidum vilakkugal
pagel pol kaattuthae!

im in a situation ive nvr
bn in b4.. im not sure of wd to do.
bt e person hus involved
loves e song mentioned above, ;)

calls me aunty. granmother..
n worse AKKA. aiyo aiyo.
heheh. bt oh wel. we shal see
whr al this is gona end..
choc baby.

didnt go sch todae
not bn wel lateli
headaches flyin bac again.
n wel e much awaited
las min raya eve shoppin
has cum, this evening
wif my darlz minz.

ive stil got to go to sch
ac dae skit rehearsal.
wel oni 2 hrs,
chop chop fin thn
meet minz. thrs so much
i wanna tok to her.
nt tt we dun tok evydae
bt oh wel. nths better
thn meetin up n tokin
over coffee or sth

raya wk is such a bz week fer me
bt its gt nth to do wif raya
tts e best part *boo*
25th- rehearsal fer global edn seminar
- rehearsal fer ac dae skit
26th- ac dae actuali event
-rehearsal fer GES
which means AL fer both daes.
n of cos 30th- the actual GES
AL on tt dae as well..

3 daes AL. n schs juz started
god save me la..
haish. nvm
all fer e gd of it all..

i feel guud bad sad confused
mixedup n wdeva fcuk
im thinkin too much
too fast...
not guud at all..

wd habib tol me
a few mths ago..
i repeated it to him yest.
n he rmbred. hehe
wel it wud b nice
if things happen fer me
the way they happened fer habib
;) reali nice hehe

so til thn. advanced raya wishes fer
all my deary muslim darlinz.
i hope all ur dreams n wishes cum true.
aaaammeeeennnn

lotsa loves
muackz
JuLiE

*WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE*
IM sooo reali happi this morninz..
due to wd has happened in e earli wee hrs .. jz nw
sth i shal nt disclose.. bt wel. *GRINZ WIDELY*
sth i hoped tt wil happen.. has happenned.
quickyly enuff.. bt wel.. nths ever too earli.. ;)
hmm yest was a disaster unless u count in wds mentioned above.
damned tired.. was not fastin..
n had a terrible migrain. [is tt e ryt spellin?]
i tot i was slowly dyin.. migrain earli in e mornin..
cudnt get outaf bed fer sch..
n thn afta an hr of KDS. i walked towards mac.
alone. waitin fer e others to get done wif their tourism cls.
had a cup of hot milo whn my crampz start.
gosh.. GOD reali tests e guud ppl!!!
aiyo aiyo aiyo. afta EVM. e gals n i head to e library
whr zura darlin slps like a flower on e seat!
soo damn heavenli her face.. e rest of us haf no heart to
wake her up.. tho it was getin late fer biz com lesson..
wel whn she eventuali wakes up shes like "y u all nvr wake me up?"
whahhaha damn cute. poor thing la see..
auto shut dwn once in condusive environment!!! swt!!
at biz comm unfortunateli..
i ws shuttin dwn.. ryt under e pink ladys nose.
trust my headache n cramps to jump to a level 2 notches higher..
makin me feel as if hell fire is jz arnd e corner.
gosh. i was thnkin all e heavens in e werld
whn wahida smsed to say tt i didnt haf to meet her.
once lesson was over... al i ever wanted to do ws
to practicalli FLY BAC HOME TO MY BED!!!
which i didnt.. of cos. took e train wif shasha..
we chit chat til i gt dwn at khatib.
aaah.. loveli. i almos walk-jog home.
n all i noe is i sat on my bed.. n *weee*
i was in lala land.. hehehhe..
hmm wel afta excessive amt of
panadol extra tablets.
evrytings better now.. n wel..
NEW HAPPENINGS haf occured. n haf
heightened my spirits to a totali
*i stil cant believe this has actuali happened* level
bt oh wel...
im stil all smiles as always.
dear GOD plz dun get my "yest sicki yucki" thingies to cum bac
cos im in a very jolly guud mood
im goin fer a werkshop todae..
im goin to geylang serai fer las min shoppin wif minzi todae
i soo wanna enjoy myself.
LET ME PLZ! *AAAAAMMMMEEEEEN*
k now im off to go get ready fer sch..
lotsaloves
muackz
JuLiE

hmm.. schs started
new tymtable.. ish not exactli flatterin.. bt oh well..
life stil goes on i guess...
apart frm e gals .. im e onni one hus chosen Entrepreneurship as an elective
so hehe.. im not reali at my element.
bt well.. doin up a biz.. ish reali sth i wanna do.
so haha.. friends dunt alwys cum as a priority i guess
so which means..
i cum to sch evrydae at 8.. bt on wed n fri.. ENT is onni frm 8 - 9..
n i'l b free FREEE wif nth
else to do frm 9 to 11... or 9 - 12.. wth??
haish... nvm la..
shall figure sth out la..
mmm todae ish gona b a very bz dae...
afta ent ish over im to rush home.. clean up
menain.. vacuum/mop/wash my hse.
whahah.. ppl cumin over to buka!!
im SOOO excited noe..
like its bn soo long since ppl came to my plc..
like a gatherin sorta thingie
bn yrs infact..
so daddys uztad cumin. n frens.. n mehrus family.. ariffahs family..
n hopefulli nazminah..
shes nt bn wel.
haish.. hmmm..
indrani came over a few daes ago..
she jz appeared at arnd 8.. haha.. bt its bn fun lateli
havin her arnd at home once in a while..
like ive gt sum company.. a guud fren. to tok to..
abt completeli aniting under e sun.. lyk frm hus hot n not..
which gyus gona break which gals heart..
whahah.. its jzu girly wirly stuffies u do wif.. well GALS.
hehehe gossip?. hehe hell yeah i guess!
hehehheeh she she came.. n i was as usual..
bz cleanin up e afta break fast thingies
n she asked.. whther i was being paid! aiyoooo..
its my own hse la.. fer wd i get paid fer.. bt hey.. it sounds guud
julz officiali on currency crisis. so sum cold hard cash
wud do me ALOTTA GUUUD
hmm thn while she was showin shah sum nra dance vids on youtube..
i was browsin thru her lappy..
for songs to upload.. n i came across... "cant hold us down"
by christina aguilera..
i noe.. kinda old.. like whn i was in sec 2 i guess [2002]
bt it had bn my fav whn it first came out
like.. e lyrics do mean sum guud stuff...


"So what am I not supposed to have an opinion
Should I be quiet just because I'm a woman"

i mean.. yes we are in the 21st century..
women are finali being treated on par wif men..
bt they are sum low life dimwits hu stil think in e CONVENTIONAL way..
thn men are alwys better thn women in evry single way..
i mean.. its true..
tel an effin "oh-so-weathly", "oh-i canot-control-my-ego"
bizman tht thrs a new rival company.. whos CEO is MS so n so.. or MRS soso.
n he'l b like smirkin.. or sneerin to himself..
thinkin t he can def do better since.. shes just a WOMAN.
it does happen. i mean leave e talent of e woman asyd.
sum men jzu feel tht they own e werld n
woman are juz extra beings on e werld fer them to make use of.

" If you look back in history
It's a common double standard of society
The guy gets all the glory the more he can score
While the girl can do the same and yet you call her a whore
I don't understand why it's okay
The guy can get away with it & the girl gets named"

its correct wd?? whn u noe sum bloke..
hus got like 6 six gals .. playin arnd..
evryone wil go.. "
waah he damn e style ah.. 6 gals.."
bt if its gona be a gal hus playin arnd wif 6 guys..
u go "wallau.. wd a bitch la.. HoPPER.. knncbb.. whore"
wtf ryt? wtf man!!! its always bn like tt...

hehehe wel.. juz my thoughts.. now cls over!!
hehe bt gals being shunned by e society n
guys being glorified by their so called victory..
sth to ponder over eh???
muackz
JuLiE

hello!! been quite a loong while since ive bn bloggin regularli.. hehehe.. thts me pic. taken at joo chiat.. wif minzi. hehe. hmmm lifes bn a bitch.. wel.. in a very guud way tt is. erm. yeah. ups n downs here n thr. stil haven gone to e "hign-on-emotions" level yet.. so haha. juz sailin along smoothly i gues.. gues im growin up eh. ive figured not to tink too much abt aniting.. juz go wif e flow n do e best i can in wdeva i wanna do.. hmmm. SCHS FINALI STARTING!! 3 more daes to goo.... *woohooooo* i seriousli cant wait. afta a whole mth of doin pretty much evryting othr thn aniting related to sch... i juz cant wait.
i miss e gals. i miss e pink lady. i miss isq.. i miss. gosh i miss alot la!
mic studio.. my seniors. hehe. e ite gobal edu seminar is cumin up.. thn thrs a werkshop.. n a skit as well. *weeeeeee* im finali gona b very bz.. my times gona b occupied. hehe 3 new modules as well. hmm i miss havin no tym fer aniting else bt sch.. haha.. very wierd fer julie to say such stuff.. bt yesh.. reali. of cos e holz was fun.. i mean reali. it has bn my best holz. ive been meetin minzi on e regular basis, n its nvr bn better.. n thrs ash. thrs creammu.. thrs akhber.. thrs habib.. its like.. this holz i was juz freee.. n in my element.. my frens..
ive bn soo into my social circle.. i gues i wanna go bac to my gd old bz wif sch daes.. its nvr too good to stay in one plc fer too long aniwae..
HARA RAYA ish on e way as wel... went raya shoppin last nyt.. heheh.. so far all my stuff are frm e FEROZ KHAN COLLECTIONS! hehehehe sound sooo.. soo style.. heheheh. raya shoppins done! hehe bt u noe.. reali.. e vibe.. e *ooooh.. its HARI RAYA* mood.. is juz not thr at all.. e buzz is not thr. e excitement. is nowhr. its like.. *oh wel.. another hari raya is here.. so hey cum.. let go visiting.* tt kinda thing. haish. i dunnoe whthr its juz me. or fer sum othrs too.. i mean reali. e probs at home are juz gettin worse. so like. it totali puts off all e happi thingis. so oh wel. we shal see. bt fer now. julz is all smiles.. schs startin ehehhehe... n ya. i haf to go sum up my cls treasure box. hehe as usual. im a last min do-er whn responsibilities cum. im tinkin of buyin a grey top.. sch uni. i onni haf maroon. hehe mebe. see how. wel wel wel.. im off now..
muackz
JuLiE

Its one in the morning
Im blowing bubbles into the hazy October sky
I watch as the bubbles sway in the cool breeze
gently.. some fast.. some slow..
My thoughts are running as well..
fast and slow in the blurred depths of my mind
A car goes by.. its light shining on my bubbles
some "pop" in an instant.. othrs continue to
move further away from me.
Children like to "catch" bubbles.. tiny fingers
reaching up to touch...
I prefer to watch them fly..
some come so close and "pop" at my face
others fly away and dissappear out of sight.
Bubbles in the blurry sky.

*weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee*
im flyin.. hehe julies in e flyin in e sky mood!
wel i tok to him whahahh weeeeeeeeeee
onni fer a while. bt im smilin lor!
bn smilin ever since! whahhahaha
frm ear to ear! hehehehhe
e conversation is like goin thru
my head again n again heheheh'
hmmmm tts e happy smiley part
cum to e reason y im pissed..
pissed off wif e lil lady wif curlz!
hu was supposed to call me..
whn i reminded her sooo many effin times.
i m sooo angry bt nvm. i shal think "taleban"
n smile.. bt stil. wth? a simple fonecall to
inform me abt watcha gona do. wil tt hurt?
here i ws waitin n waitin like a piece of dunno wd
seriousli pissed off ... PISSED OFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF!
haish nvm. happens la. bt no more movie wif u lady!
meetin minzii. hehe she wil haf e decency to CALL!
we shal catch movie hehe YAYNESS!
n thn meetin thahira at taka. hehehe
myt stay over. *weeeeeeeeee*
life ish gd.. if not fer e itsy bitsy nt gd things.
rmbr tokin to minzi. abt how our lifes wud b like
sister in laws. whahha we always cum up wif crap
bt its lots fun to imagine. its e onni tym we can
do wdevar we like n thrs no interruption
hehehe minziis cute. shes constantli tryin
n hopin tht i wil fall fer her bro. so tt she n i wil live
under e same roof. whahahaha wth. oh well.
no la. i mean. no. n wel.. nonono.. heheheh
*grins wideli at minzii if u are readin this*
rmbr the othr one. e K family.. tt wud b
soo much better di.. so much better :D
hehehe k thn im off. julz is on holz
bn goin out alot lateli.
ramadan ish cumin. shd b stayin home
readin e quran.. doin lotsa doas.
prayin fer happiness in all my loved ones'
lives. inclusive of akhber taleban creammu
jaffu sam minzi nazira fadhie prashant irin sashu
man faizy mm faizy amk ariffah aisha ansari
shah malik shaheed shanu mic studio ppl
zura shasha daya shila sangaran uma durga
hudsie indix habibi munzi amir n yeah e list goes on.
i love u all man! hehehe
those hu are not mentioned . i stil love u la
juz tt i haf to stop sumwhr i canot b goin on n on.
lotsa loves ppl
huggies
muackz
JuLiE

hey hey hey
bn long since i blogged
gd news EXAMS ARE OVER
HOLZ ARE HERE.
bd news. no money.
need a job badli. boohoo!
nvm. wel todae.. thrs onni one person
i haf in mind. n i plan to blog abt her.
this entry is all abt her. n me. juz her. n me.
yesh its aynul nazminah. my one n only.
hot pic eh?? wahahah shes ma sexy mama!
wel lets see.. she n i. we are wd u call
"complicated story" [atleast to us la]
me. i get along better wif guys thn gals.
it easier fer me to tok things out wif guys la.
wdeva othrs haf to say.
whaha tts how i m.
so it came to me as a surprise
to see hw minzi n i clicked instantli
minzi was one of e many ppl
hu were in e conference
rareli do i ever call gals hu give me their number.
so whn i did call her wel. we talked normalli.
i found myself likin her instantli.
which ws not me. thn we met.. watched tirupaachi
wif malik. which ws soo much of fun
we called each other almos evrydae tokin all sorta crap.
n wel. we both knew tt no one wil understan
us better thn e both of us.
we tok abt evrytin under e sun with no embarassment.
we noe tt both of us are goin thru a rough patch..
we meet onni in mths. so mani things happen inbtw
bt we haf nvr quarrelled over aniting.
yesh we alwys get pissed off wif
each othr cos we rareli meet bt othr thn tt..
shes bn reali great. hehe i love u lots lots minzi
haha e best part ish. shes 18 n im 17 bt we nvr felt our
age as a barrier.. both of us are as crazee as wdeva.
in e very few tyms tt we meet n e very few tyms tt we call..
we alwys noe tt we'l b thr fer each othr.
no matter how mani ppl cum into our lives.
shes sumone hu actuali looks
up to me fer all e funni reasons
bt thn again. ive not seen anione hu
expresses themselves as openli as
aynul nazminah shajahan
haha bt thn she contradicts her ownself,
she can bcum as shy as ever in a matter of seconds.
hehehe. tts one of e many things in her
which make me laff whn it happens. hehe
darlin nazminah. we've known each othr fer abt 3 yrs now
we cum to noe of e many differences tt we share as tym goes by
bt wel e differences onni makes us much stronger ....
we met jz nw. which ws hellotsa fun. after soo long
i cudnt stop laffin. thinkin abt us waitin fer each othr
fer an hr or so .. n thn e blackout at plaza sing...
ur nude sketches.. e single scoop choc
ur BUTT! n our hugs on e escalator...
its reali bn a while since we had so much of fun
i appreciate u fer evryting u haf bn .. n fer knowin
tht julie ish always gona b here fer minzi
lotsa loves
muackz
JuLiE

finalli!!!
its alll over!!
wel not evryting. juz oa fer nw
hhehehe im imagining..
sam sayin "gd mornin julie..
plz cancel my appts todae.."
whahahha
weve bn tokin abt he's openin biz
n me being his PA.
coool!! way coool!
e kindaf things wild imagination can bring us to!
its fun tho. we both haf goals in our minds.
so wel.. haha.. so much of fun noe!
like we haf sth in mind. sth soo excitin soo soo gd tht
its almos too gd to b true n wel. IT IS ACCOMPLISHABLE!
if hard werk and determination is put in.
hmmmmmm.. nice... very very nice
hmmmmm.. in a few yrs to cum.. yesh
as i always say.. JULIE WIL DEF MAKE IT BIG ONE DAE
heheheheh... n i reali mean it.
OA PROJ ish done n over wif
Bonding Hearts Wedding Consultancy.
my biz. wahaha tt took a whole lot of me tym
bt all worthwhile hehe.
todae.. SW.. me zura daya shila nurul n nina..
we played UNO STACKO! whahahahah
fun.. we were like screamin away cos e thing
ws gona topple ani moment
it did aniwae.. wahaha tt ws fun..
FINALI PAUL TWOHILL ISH OUT OF S'PORE IDOL!!!
haha im not reali a big fan of SI2 bt wel..
i tink hady ish e best among e final 3.
wdeva!
my sista.. is floodin my papa's room..
cryin.. i dunnoe wds rong wif her..
paul ish afterall... a nobody la! haish.. crazeee pplz!
u noe at tyms..
ppl.. juz make u feel so good. so special.
i like tt. i reali like tt. gues its cliche la.
hu doesnt like being felt special.
bt wel.. its stil a nice feelin. whn u noe
sumone thinks tt u are someone .
sumone hu doesnt noe u tt well at all.
nice.
nyts
ppl
*hugz*
muackz
JuLiE

yesh
as usual e mondae bluez!
access exam. no werds to say
i did wd i can i did wd i knew.
had mock exam fer acf
pink lady wanted to
"scare e living daylight out of us"
which she reali did tho.
cos e exam ish like next wk..
n thrs not much tym left
n evryting has to b like at e back of our hands.
all 4 journals. bank rec. ledgers.
n wdeva not. haish. im stil ok la.
i juz need to brush up on.. erm..
stuff la. haish.
one more wk n schs gona b over.
thrs bzf to study as well..
tonyt me gona b finishin me oa proj
thn cum up wif my 2 week tymtable.
how to spread across my tym over 2 subjects
n various topics . thnk gdness its nth like
e o levelz. wteva fcuk.
hehe lunch was funni..
zura daya shila n me
tokin abt local pornstars hu video emselves
while goin at it.
hehehehe
crazee ppl hu dun haf shame.
wdeva la. yuck man! total yuck!
k fine. so its rainin now.
almos cats n dogs.
im bcumin *moodless*
gues nt evryting can go e way i wan it to b.
so wtf aniwae
wd i need now..
is food. cos im freakin hungry.
im tinkin...
*a hungry woman... is an angry woman*
muackz
JuLiE

boo!
hehe
watched KANK.
finali.. wif thahira n shah.
hmmm. gd movie. i loiike!
cried buckets. whahaha
wel. toked to sam yest!
sooo funniiiiiiii!!!
laff n laff n lafff...
he sumwht resembles..
saiffu n creammu put together.
heheheh
interestin..
haha..
im in e crush zone now.
not me. bt my besties.
whahahhaha
"dae hes soo cute dae"
"julieeeeeee shes sooo hot la"
hahahahaha
ragin hormones! whahahah
its funni how crazee ppl can get
over hehehehe their crushes.
reali cute. suddenli e werld juz turns into
a pile of fresh lovelorn roses fer em..
n all they can do ish smile..
n smile.. n smile mooore..
thinkin of evryting..
which may or may not happen..
even e smallest msg wil sen them flyin
jumpin arnd.. go all poetic..
all lovey dovey. heheh
hmmmmmmmm
i gues evryone goes this
phase eh?
biased or not..
its stil lotsa fun.. hehehe
crush or not crush.
we meet sooo many ppl. in our lives
they all cum in wif diff purposes.
n its not easy to filter hu are e ryt ppl
n hu r those hu are jz a waste of tym.
sum cum in wif fairytale werds
and leev without a happi ending.
sum cum in n b hu they are
gif beautiful memories.
n stay cos they mean well.
n they say...
thrs always tht one special person
hu wil enter ur life
n b ther fer u no matter wd.
wil share ur happi n bad moments.
wil look into ur eyes n its all love u see.
ok tts nice. it wil happen one dae. ok.
n thn thr are a bunch of fools..
hu dunt noe how to let go
[k i admit i used to b one of those fools.]
they juz dun understan
e meanin of "life stil goes on"
all they noe how to do
ish hurt n hurt. n nth else.
god bless these poor souls
hu dun haf a life at all.
wel tts all fer now.
lotsa loves
muackz
JuLiE

OMIGOSH!!!!
TEACHERSDAE PERFORMANCE WAS FANTABULUSOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!
SOO MANI PICTURESTAKESN
SO MUCH OF TEARS.. "HAPPPY" TEARS SHED!!
CONGRATS TO MA DARLINGS...
[PROJ MANAGERS]..
IDA. MARDIAH. NURUL (me oso!!)
[CAST]
IMRAN.SOFEA.DODI.AYU.INTAN.HUYI
YAZID.SEAN.NADZIRA.N MY ONE N ONLI "MRS CHITRA" AINIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII
[MAKEUP]
ZUUUURAAAAAAA! CYNTHIA JIAMING N CYNTHIA'S MUM!
[BACKSTAGE]
TAUFIQ.KHAI.HABIB.(thnk u soo much)hadijah.hayatiCHITCHIT!!!(LOVE YA!)
SAHEERA.ESTHER.LAWSON.JOANNA.
teacher...MDM SALENA...
heheeh we all hadsuch a greatdaetodae.
im proud of u MIC STUDIOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!
N OF COS DAYAAAAHHHHHHHH U ALL WON!!
WOOHOOO
HOT HOT HOT!!!.
lotsa pics were taken.. yet to b uploaded.. heheh
ppl.. go see me frensta in a weeks tym or so ok..
heheh
n thnk u TO (STIL GT LOTS TO GO LEH)hehe..boo!
SAMURAI. for all ur encouragement.CREAMMU oso!!
k now im off.. im off to meet FADHIE N PRESSHY N E REST.
myt watch DEVIL WEARS PRADA!!!
im sorry if e entry is HIDEOUS!MESSY!
btireali.. dun care,. im like such a
"weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee i wanna jump jump n dance" mood
"gold digger" was like freakin hot hot hot hot!
zura me dodi ayu al dancin away.. whahahah
heardsum news abtgold digger..
aiya..
nvm lor.. hahahahah sad oso.. stil hot eyes.. ish always hot eyes!!!!
lotsa lovies babez!
azura juz hit me wif her BOOOOTY!!!
whahahah "NAK JOGET LA SAYA!!"
mmmmmuuuuuuuuuuaaaacccccckkkkzzzzzzzzzzz
JuLiE

wd a sucky dae...
MONDAE REDS.
(sound like sum ciggy brand)
(marlboro reds or sth)
i gues e onni gd part was
meetin daryll at j8..
haha at e traffic light thr..
n suddenli i realised..
how much i seriousli miss
4e3/3e3 '04'05
hmmmm..
slogin study all e tym daes
bt stil care free enjoyable daes.
i soo wanna go to ytss on thurs.
bt effin bishan ite may not haf a half dae
wallau.. haish.. n exams are nearin so if i chabot..
oso sickenin.. haish haish. bt wdeva it is..
i wil nvr miss moi cca performance.. fer aniting!
so my sucky dae goes like this
effin redhead decyds to bring forward e dateline
for ppt proj. to THIS WEDNESDAE.
wtf wtf wtf!?!?!?!?!??!
k nvm. i shal promise to stare at e pc
all nyt to fin evyting up.
[like i gt a choice nw. wtf]
lunch at toa payoh banquet.
ws thr last wk wif ayu n dodi..
so decyded to haf lunch thr wif e gals.
[excludin shasha hu rushed off.. n by e way..
met mon n jack. whahahah.. we gals foreva laffin away...
fer e first tym.. went silent.. wif.. fear i gues...
hehe. shasha looks lyk baby bkt timah hill.. next to mon..
hus mt everest..hehe no offence la. bt real cute couple tho.
hehe n jack. shiverin .. hehehe]
k bac to banquet .. toa payoh.
gt lost half way.. haish fine! im not familiar wif toa payoh.
so i asked sum ppl thr.. thnk gdness fer e malay auntie. hu knew
bt thr was this lady hu shocked me..
i asked her.. "excuse me.. erm. do u noe whrs e banquet arnd here"
n she went "wads a banquet? may i noe?"
WTH!?!??!?! u live in s'pore n u dunnoe
wd a freakin BANQUET is?!?!?!?!
haish.. k fine. go bac to sch. mic studio performin fer teahers dae
so rehearsal as usual. things goin on ok. lotsa brushin up to do..
u guys wil do great on thursdae!!! *mmmmuackz*
bt MY PROPS WENT MISSING!!!
nvm..sumone muz haf placed em sumwhr.
it cudnt haf bn thrown away or sth
i wil make sure thrs hell to pay if tt happens.
bt wel. of cos im panickin.. i was close to tears.
cos my props include my sari!!!! my blanky!!
haish. tml muz go find mdm salena n figure out hu
cleared e comms hub. evyone juz keeps sayin
"i dunnoe"... haish.. was soo angry. tt whn i came home.
mummy ask me to fry egg.. n it didnt turn out wel..
i screamed my head off.
its not lyk as if i dun noe how to fry eggs.
i love cookin. i experiment in e kitchen.
n fryin eggs is not a big deal.
bt wel. i dunnoe wd i ws thinkin.
abt my freakin one n onni sari la. haish
haish. wel .. muz b positive oso.
it has to b sumwhr in sch.
hmmm
so now here i m .. thinkin
"whrs ma sari... hw m i gona fin e proj...
whys life bcumin more n more challengin..
n THKN GDNESS fer frens like samu n nas..
i feel much better now..."
bOo!
muackz
JuLiE

gosh im pissed
im stressed
n i hate it
i hate evyting now
u noe. i jz wanna
i dunoe
u noe.. u noe.. im missin u again
y shud i.
im havin e tym of my life in sch
evytings gd
bt thn suddenli i miss u
y .. u noe how pissin tt is?
i vagueli rmbr,no i CLEARLY rmbr..
how all i reali looked forward ws u
my weekends were like
"m i goin to meet u.. whr are we goin?
wd tym wil it b? how long cud i b wif u?
lil bit tym oso nvm. juz a while oso can
whr u. how u. this u .. tht u.. YOU"
n thn now. im nth at al.
its like.. its like wtf la.
u cum along.
u do evyting u wanted to.
u wanted to meet. u wanted to make tym fer me
u wanted it. YOU. YOU! YOU.
n thn e same YOU... e same YOU had to tel me
nt to do aniting abt aniting.
wth ish rong wif u. god shd noe.
so after all e hapi happi thingies.
now u are REALI BUSY wif ur werk.
u SERIOUSLI forgot my b dae..(nt cos u didnt wish or wd.. bt cos it made me feel like u were juz purposeli forgetin evyting . aiya i dunoe la.. u juz .. nth )
u canot reply a msg.
ok u were werkin
so after werk or ur free tym YOUR COM DIED ON U
ur internet connection WENT FOR A VACATION
ur LINE GOT CUT COS U DIDNT PAY YOUR BILL
cum on. im sure u gt more excuses ..
so y all this? to avoid me? or isit sth else?
u noe. i can ask soo mani freakin effed up qns.
bt im stil gona get e same freakin vague answers
things tt i wun understan. things like
god has punished me.
GOD HAS PUNISHED U??????
i mean.. did u juz say
GOD HAS PUNISHED U?
wd e eff has tt gt to do wif me>?
i mean like. hello WHRS E EXPLANATION?
u cum here n tel me god has punished u.. n so
im like supposed to "oh .. okok so tts wds happened. ic"
n thn let go.. u noe. it wil b easy to let go,
if i get my qns answered truthfulli
whthr or not e truth ish gona stab thru me.
or wdeva shit
u are freakin hidin sth.
or was it cos i found out e truth?
u noe .. YOU FREAKIN WANNA NOE STH????
i freakin wish tt dae whn i saw u..
i freakin wish tt i had grabbed both ur arms n shoook u well..
wel enuff fer e damn senses of urs to like float bac to earth.
or sth like tt.
i seriousli canot bleev i stood thr like a statued cow in e temple.
wel until e cows cum home oso i dun think anitings gona happen now..
nw i wonder how i let myself into all this
its sickenin u noe.. reali sickenin.
REALI SICKENING!
after evryting .. i stil try to b nice.. i say hello..
i wait patientli fer e sky to drop dwn
i stil do u noe.
julies being nice. wait. im always nice.
u noe.. u freakin noe tt i mean wel.
bt u choose to ignore.avoid.forget.
wadeva shit. n i stil put myself thru it
cos im not like u. i dun hide .
i dun hide myself frm u..
i didnt pretend as if evyting was al ryt
i tol u EXACTLY wd ws happenin.
n EXACTLI how i felt.
i didnt say "god has punished me" shit
cos i was being myself
julie

SHE IS : JuLiE
HER BDAE : 28/07/89
HER SCH : bishan ite
SHE DOES : sing. scream. dance. jump. panic. n thn freak out.
SHE HATES : hypocrites. bitchs. bastards. creepy crawlies.
SHE LOVES : cheesecake. hugz. sean paul. fwens. family. you.



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